When LOVE and DEATH Collide

Chapter 11 - I keep on remembering HIM

"Keep on remembering doesn't mean anything special, right?" - Katie

I walked up early the next morning but not to get to school. I would skip class today, I know Stan needs more time of not seeing this face of mine, so I'll give him the chance. I go down to have breakfast with my mom, yeah that's right I'm making more memories with her, for when it's my time already, she will have good memories to remember.

"Mom, am not going to school today." I declared that not really asking for her permission.

"Why honey? Is there anything that's bothering you? Are you sick?" Mother's first reaction would always been like this.

"No mom, I just need a breath of fresh air, you know incident, school, and they are pain in the brain." I retorted.

"Okay, just be careful if you're going somewhere, you get me do you?" I know that tone, its kinda threat than a reminder.

"Noted mom, I'm not going to do anything stupid, roam around for awhile is enough. Don't worry about me because I can handle this mom." I assure her that I will not make any more stupid act, not until it come to me when it's about time, I'll be patient.

I get my car, and I started to drive without having a particular place in my mind. As I drove along the road in California, a sudden image of Stan appeared on my mind, particularly his smile. I tried hard to concentrate on driving when another picture of him entered my mind that's when he's furious about me being around him. I stopped the car at once and remembered his face when he's angry to me and how his words dug into my heart.

"I have given you this day already, why can't you just be happy about that." I murmured. I lost it; he will never smile again to me. I should prepare myself on his frowning face and serious one.

"Can I ever see that smile again?" I asked myself. I know that I don't have in mind the idea of liking people nor falling in love, but can I make exceptions? Or pretend that I don't have to feel that thing they call "love".

"No! This is some kinda of a guilty feeling because I've cost a lot of trouble to him and that's only that! Katie listened, he's handsome, cool and kind on his in own way but let me remind you that he dislikes you too." I keep on mumbling that for myself to serve as a reminder that he will not even keep his eyes on me.

"Keep remembering doesn't anything special right?" After I have made myself believed on that thought, suddenly I remind Stan's face when I wake up in the hospital, he's concerned I can sense and he totally cared that time. These feelings were unknown to me and it was starting to eat my whole being.

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