I have always had trouble in school no matter what level I was in. Probably the only time I have not had trouble in school was when I was in elementary school. All of my problems started when I was in Middle School and they just started getting worse and worse from there. I honestly do not know what triggered this problem but it has happened and I have no idea how to stop it honestly. In my middle school it wasn't as bad, I would do good on the quizzes and test and everything I remember one time when I almost had a 4.0 but I got an E in one class because I'm pretty sure my teacher hated me but that is another story. I mean the fact that she put me on blast in front of the whole class though really sucked.
I've always been in honors classes. No matter what school I was in I was always in honors. In middle school I was in the Honors Program and in High school I was in the IB Program. And Lord Jesus I thought the I B program was going to kill me. I honestly do not know how I got through it. Even though I did not complete the whole program like I wanted to, I did what I had to do and got my shit together and graduated from high school. Honestly I thought it would take me forever to graduate because I honestly for a while just lost my shit. I was in a really hard place in my life and I don't think I would've gotten through it without the support of my friends and family. Even though I bitch at them a lot and tell me that they are wrong about what I want to do in my life. I know that they always have my best interest at heart and they want me to be the best that I can be as a person. I think that I am being the best person that I can be but at times it is hard. Especially in college before I am not sure about what I want to do anymore. I am changing my major on tomorrow and honestly I never thought I would have to change it, I told everybody that I was not going to change it because I wanted to be a psychology major. My whole life I flipped between psychology major and theater major.
But I think I have officially decided what I want to do with my life, I want to get a sociology major with a Woman and Gender Studies major and then I want to possibly go to Law School and serve as an attorney for woman. I have no told anybody about this before because I do not know how they would react to it. It's hard to tell one person "hey guess what I want to go into Law" That is never anything that I brought up to anybody because honestly I feel like they would not either understand or support what I wanted to do. Honestly this is a big step for me to relieze what I want to do in my life and this is what I want and I am not going to let anybody tell me otherwise. Yes granted that I may not get the welcome response that I want but honestly at this point. My response to everybody will be 'FUCK OFF THIS IS NOT YOUR LIFE THIS IS MINE BYE BYE" And that would be the end of the conversation because I do not have time for the negative in my life that I keep getting about my schooling.
Like honestly people think that they what is best for me but really they do not. Ugh. Like let's be real, no I cannot take 16 credits a semester like some people. I have to take 12. If I take anymore I will physically and mentally get sick. And I have been really good about my health and not getting sick all the fucking time so I would wish to continue this trend of being healthy. I also hate when people are like "oh why did you go so far away like why." WHY DOES IT FUCKING MATTER WHERE I WENT TO SCHOOL HONESTLY I WOULD STILL HAVE THE SAME FUCKING TROUBLE I AM HAVING HER ANYWHERE ELSE IN THE FUCKING WORLD SO PLEASE LEAVE YOUR ANSWERES AND COMMENTS AT THE GOD DAMN DOOR. BYE.
