Forever Mine ON HOLD [hiatus]

Lily's Diary

Diary,

It's been a month since I've arrived at the Manor. A month has passed but it seems like its only been a day. Scorpius says that I'm different than before. He thinks its because of the trauma from the kidnap but really I'm fine. I've never been this fine. I'm so fine that I couldn't ask for more. Is it wrong that I'm happy? I feel like I'm losing myself. Days pass by quickly and I don't remember much. Sometimes I just open my eyes and I find myself in locations I don't recognize. 

Yesterday after breakfast I went upstairs after talking with Taylor. The next moment I found myself deep inside the centre of the lake, head in. I swam out gasping for air. I sat by the lake for a long time just letting my clothes get cold around my skin. I called for my broom before it got too dark. I lied to Scorpius that I fell asleep in the rose gardens. He just called me silly. Then we had dinner. I don't know. I can't remember much. 

I'll write again. 

Lily

I close my diary and collapse on my bed. I feel strained and dull and it quickly overcomes me. I fall asleep