Slowly, my hate will reach you..but will I drown in resentment first ?
When school was done, I met the girls at the courtyard, when I arrived they all became quiet, probably because of the incident earlier.
Hey Gabi, I am sorry, I was just frustrated, but I know that does not make up for raising my voice at you", I stated. She looked at me, but did not replied. I went towards her, earning an apologetic glance from Zia.
" What does my little girl need?....a boyfriend?", I said playfully, while patting her hair and struggling not to laugh. She looked away as if she was deeply offended, but a giggle was heard.
Linking each other's arms, we went to the parking lot, while earning stares from the gross boys at school. "Don't they have anything else to do?" I questioned with disgust in my voice.
"They probably don't...because they have no life ", Gabi replied. We glanced at each other and laughed.
Zia opened the car door, so we entered because the cold wind was blowing. When it was my stop, I got out and waved goodbye. I stopped and searched for the house keys, I entered and took a long look at the living room. The darkness was the room's only companion. I went to my room and fell asleep.
"Junhong, why are people so mean ?", the young boy asked, with tears threatening to come out of his eyes. I looked the other way not knowing how to comfort him, at age eight, what did I know about comforting ? He slightly pulled my shirt, beckoning for my attention, with tears streaming down his eyes, I went back to looking the other way, I was really bad at attempting to cheer people up as a kid.
"Junhong, don't ignore me....please look at me...Junhong, please..don't do this to me...not you", the boy said between sobs. He put his arms around me and could feel the wetness of his tears, I stood still, hearing his unsteady breath and sobbing. I hugged him back, waiting for him to calm down.
I woke up, beads of sweat around my face and neck, damn, it been years since I've dreamed that. Checking the time on my phone, 4:00...wow, really ? I told myself that I would wait before going to sleep again, I was too afraid, I did not want dream about him anymore. I went to sit in my desk chair and cried. Why does he have to appear in my dreams..Why?
I turn on my phone to listen to music, music scores usually made me have pleasant dreams, I learned at age twelve...
Sleep was slowly taking over me, I finally closed my eyes and went to sleep. Waking up is always so hard, the daily struggles of life... Stupid cold weather...I hate you. When I done getting ready for school, I ate some frozen fruit and French toast with milk. I went outside, dressed in mostly all black, though my backpack had red roses and I had a white shirt, with the letters Bucket List, and a red sweater that read Born Hater.
I went out of my house and was greeted by my friends waiting in the car so that we could go to school. The ride to school was hectic, AeTae was singing a song about food, which I found a bit funny, Zia was singing along, Sakura and Hana were braiding each other's hair while singing the chorus and Gabi and I were rapping or at least attempting to. We got out of the car and went to class together, on the way there someone bumped into me, I just walked by. I did not want to apologize, so I past by the person, completely ignoring their presence.
I heard Hana and Zia apologized while Sakura and Gabi ran to catch up to me.
" Sorry, she tends to be in her own world a lot, but she is good person", I hear AeTae replied in a apologetic tone.
"Hey, why didn't you apologize?", Sakura asked, while grabbing my backpack. "
No reason, I just didn't feel like it", I responded with a nonchalant expression written over my face. Gabi and Sakura looked at each other but decided not to push the subject any further.
The reason...was because he had a similar scent...that I wish to forget, a scent that won't leave me because he always smelled like that....
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While I was walking, someone bumped into me, I looked up to glare at the person and make that person look like a fool, but the person passed by me. A girl?
Usually, girls apologized because of how charming and handsome I may look. But she did not, she continued walking as if I did not exist. But, what interested was her..scent was similar to Junhong's strawberry shampoo. Two girls apologized.
I did not care... I had to confront this girl, why was the scent the same ? I was about to go to her, but her and her crew had left. Junhong..where are you...? The guys were at courtyard during lunch, and when I came closer, Seungkwan was blushing and the rest of the members had a big grin plastered on their faces.
"Hey guys, what's up ?", I asked wanting to know what was going on, while standing near Woozi.
" Lover Boy over here was acknowledged by a girl and she smiled at him, which is the reason why he is acting like a complete weirdo", Woozi responsed while regaining composure .
"Hey Vernon, she actually smiled at me, she is so beautiful, her eyes look so gentle and kind", a happy Seungkwan replied while dancing like a ballerina.
"Really, that's good, who is she ?" I replied. Seungkwan's face fell, and abruptly stopped dancing.
"Why, what's wrong ?", I asked while sitting down at the bench, Seungkwan followed still with a sad look on his face.
"I don't even know her name... ", Seungkwan murmured, while fiddling with his bracelet and his head held down.
"Nice going Sherlock, you're a freaking idiot", Woozi mumbled while the rest were all disappointed. I patted Seungkwan on the shoulder, and gave him a ressuring smile.
"It's okay, if it is meant to be, you will see her again", I informed him, still smiling. Seungkwan's face lit up and he began to dance again.
"Vernon, you really think so ?", Seungkwan pondered with sparkly eyes, I was able to give him hope again, but I thought about the girl with the strawberry shampoo.
"I know so", I chuckled. Woozi was about to complain but the members stopped him. He acts like such a kid...he reminds of her....
I am sorry, this chapter stinks but, I hope to improve on the next chapter, so please comment and vote.....if it is not a bother....
