queued thoughts

III

A/N: please don't be quiet...

an apple is all she gets for dinner that night

she is texting the boy she likes

"i work out," he says

he probably meant it to be innocent

but she didn't see it that way

she takes a bite but later looks at her thighs

thick and covered with marks of pain

if he saw them, she thought

would he look at her the same?

would he stare at those pretty brown eyes

he loved

the same?

would he hold her hand

when they strolled down the sidewalk

squeezing gently

so she wouldn't let go?

would he accept her call past three

when she needed him the most?

would he still do what he promised her

from the moment they met?

"i can't be the death of you, because i'm all about taking care of you."

she wouldn't know

because

he wouldn't understand

but how would she know?

know if he genuinely cared

if she didn't try?

-b