queued thoughts

X

i hated you much

from the very beginning

from the very start

i pushed my feelings away

like a ghost in the dark

i shoved it in the closet

without fear

without pain

i put it away

with lock and key

all my strength and

all my hate

hid in the shadows with the dark

i tried to care for you

but they poked me in the back

i was blissfully under

your faint love and twisted words

kept me going

the warmth creeped on my skin

i was blissfully unaware

they stabbed me

one, two, three...

they counted

it killed me to know you sat and watched

clapping them on

hugging me and telling me everything's okay

it's not

was it ever?

you turned back

hands full of my blood

your creepy smile

the last thought

as i fell blissfully unconscious.

-b