Country Music Jesus (One Direction FanFic)

Chapter 20

Harry's POV:

"No, I don't mean like do you want to" I paused, "you know. I mean like what age would you want to, or do you even want kids?"

"Shit, you scared me!" she cursed, lacing our hands together as we neared the house.

I smiled to myself, liking the way things felt at this exact moment. It was almost as if she was my girlfriend. But the problem with that is when I first met Avalynn, I had just broken up with Taylor Swift. I don't like being labelled a womenizer, so I feel like asking out Avalynn would drive the press crazy. I also feel like dating her but not going public would drive me crazy, if I have a girlfriend, she deserves to be shown off to the world. I wanted to tell Avalynn I loved her, but it was way, way, to soon for that. She would most likely slap me and run away scared, enter the witness protection program and i'd never see her again.

Okay that's a bit overboard, but it is to soon to be inlove this quickly. I also need to think about my friendship with my best mate, Louis Tomlinson. Me and Lou went through everything together since we met in the bathroom's of the X-Factor. We've never faught this bad over a girl before, especially some girl from Texas. But this was a lot different, Avalynn Grace Church was not 'just some girl', I was hoping she'd be my girl. I've never met any girl like her, and you'd think being this good looking I would be with the hottest super models and everything. I don't want super models, I just want Avy. "But I don't know, maybe 26. I'm to stupid to have kids, I ain't got time to worry about keepin' fetus' alive." She winked, swinging our hands lightly.

"Same, i've got to much stuff I want to do. I'm still young y'know?

"Harry, what are we?" She asked slowly.

"What do you mean, love?" I asked, pretending I had no clue.

To be completely honest, I didn't know what we were. It was like we were friends with bennifits, but not as much. It's like we both wanted so much from each other, but didn't want to give it all. Avalynn was like my best friend that i've had a kindergarden crush on, but was completely friendzoned. The only difference was I wasn't friendzoned, Avalynn wanted me to be with her as much as I wanted her to be with me. But I couldn't be with her yet, it's to soon. It's not that i'm not over Taylor Swift, it's that the press aren't. The magazines all call me a womenizer while I see myself as a young boy.

"Like, us. Are we, y'know.. dating, or just friends?" She asked, stopping infront of our door.

"I-I um." I paused. "Are you hungry?"

"Starved." She sighed, walking in the door and slamming it on my face. I think I messed up.

Avalynn's POV:

I hated to hear that; it hurt more than a break up. It was like he knew he didn't want to date me, but he didn't want to admit it, so he changed the subject. I've never had a boyfriend, but I remember the feeling with Zayn. I knew how bad it hurt to be forgotten about and broken up with, but I tried to rub it off thinking if I reacted then i'm over-reacting. When in reality, that's how you deal with a breakup. I thought that when I fake dated.. Louis.. that I finally got what I wanted and deserved; that being Harry. But obviously I was just a game to him, I was what they apperently call 'friends with bennifits' i've heard that from Sarah.

Speaking of her, I pushed the thoughts of Harry to the back of my mind (For now) and went to Niall's room to check up on her. I opened the door to see her asleep in Niall's arms. She was completely out cold, but Niall was awaking playing with her hair. The sight of this only made me want Harry more, and I know that when I say I want him, I really want him. I bet by tonight i'll be over it and in his arms having his lips against mine as usual. But something about that didn't feel right now that I know its all fun and games for him.