losing u // jin ff (REVAMPING)

chapter eight

i took the letter from the doctor's hands and started reading...
hi laura,
by the time you read this, i may be in another world. you must be thinking why i have chosen to do this. i'm just tired...tired of waiting for your dad. i actually found out about it, that he has been cheating on me for the past few months. you might have found outs well but you are just turning a blind eye on this situation. however, i just can't. i know that this is unfair to you but please forgive me. i'm sorry that i can't provide you with the family you wanted. i'm sorry that you have a dad like that. i'm sorry that you have a mother like me. i really wish that in my next life, you will still be my daughter, my ever so kind, cheerful and lovely daughter. i'm very lucky to have you as my daughter.
i love you so much, don't ever forget this.
to: my beloved daughter, laura
from: your mom who loves you forever. 

"wake up, this is really unfair." i sobbed even harder than before. 

------2 days later------
i went to the cemetery to visit my mom. it's been two days since i went back to school.
"mom, i'll study hard and not let you down." i offered her flowers and looked at her picture, tears streaming down my cheeks.
"i've got to go for school now, bye mom." i reported as if she's still alive.
i walked out and heard my heart breaking inside of me. 

jin's POV
where's that loser, it's so boring in school, i need to see her suffering . i met my members on the way to class.
"you all have to bully laura later on when she arrives in school." i instructed my members and they all nodded their heads in unification.
i'll just have to sit back and enjoy.
i went into an empty classroom and sat down on the floor at a corner where no one could see me.
i slowly drifted into my dreams. 

laura's POV
i walked into the school feeling lifeless. nothing could cheer me up. i walked towards my classroom but jin's members stopped me, they pushed me to the floor. they stepped on my hands as i shriek in pain and they kicked me in all directions on my body.
"let go of her!!" a growl suddenly appeared from the corner. they stopped and i looked towards the owner of the voice. it was V. he pushed one of them aside and helped me up. i was really hurt not only on the outside but as well as the inside. i felt a gush of sadness overwhelming me. i immediately limped into an empty classroom and sat on the floor. hugging my knees to my chest, i cried my lungs out. 

jin's POV
"why...why is my life like that." i woke up to a sad familiar voice. am I dreaming? i rubbed my eyes, looked around and saw a small figure curled up crying. it was laura. how dare she disturb my nap. i'm going to get her. just when I was about to take my revenge, she continued on.