losing u // jin ff (REVAMPING)

chapter nine

jin's POV

"why did mom commit suicide, why did dad do that, why is kim seokjin and his gang doing this to me? why are my two most trusted pillar of support leaving me like this? why is kim seokjin crumbling me, making me feel so small? i feel like a nothing in this world. i might as well die." she continued.

die?

laura's POV

die? yes, die. i can reunite with mom again if I die. i won't have to suffer from this anymore.
"come to me."  a dark voice rang in my head.
i looked around for any sharp objects and saw a pen knife on the floor.
"goodbye." i said as i held it up against my wrist. i closed my eyes.

jin's POV

i saw laura picking up a pen knife on the floor.
"goodbye." she mumbled with a sad smile.
no, this can't happen.
i ran towards her and snatched the pen knife from her just before she could cut herself. the pen knife fell to the ground with a "thud".
she opened her eyes and looked at me, her pupils shaking with fear. she backed away from me furiously.
i reached out to her with my hand to calm her down and she broke down in tears.
"you're fine now, everything will be fine." i said as i went closer to her and wrapped my arms around her. i don't know why it hurts me to see her in this state.
she wrapped her arms around as well bawling her heart's content out.
"everything's fine now, don't worry ok." i comforted her as i stroked her head.
after a while, she stopped fidgeting.
is she alright now? i lifted her head up a little and found out that she has fallen asleep. looking at her fragile and petite self up close , it made me gain the urge to protect her, not letting her get hurt by anyone including me. i slowly shifted her so that now her head is on my shoulders. i too fell asleep against her head.

laura's POV

i woke up with puffy eyes and i felt that my head was on something stiff. i opened my eyes to find out that i was sleeping on jin's broad shoulders.
i quickly sat up right, letting out a soft cough from my throat. why am i sleeping against his shoulders?
my sudden movement must have woken him up. he looked at me with his sleepy eyes.
"are you feeling better?" he asked while stretching his now stiff shoulders. sudden realisation hit me that he was here when i wanted to die. i gently nodded my head.

"i've got to go, my mom's waiting for me." i tried to excuse myself. "i think i should bring you home, it's kind of late already." he said indirectly trying to say "your mom's dead, she can't be here." oh...he heard everything. "it's fine, i can go home myself." i walked out of the room.

suddenly, i felt a hand grip on my wrist. he dragged me to the car park and there parked a Ferrari. i stared at the car in awe. he opened the door and pushed me in. he started driving off.
"where do you stay?" he asked.
i told him my address. (just make up an address, i have no idea what to put)
after a while, we reached my house and i got off the car and went in my house. everything was so quiet and cold...
there was a knock on the door and i went to answer it, it turns out to be the landlord.
"yeon gi-ah, you have to pay your rent, you have been owing it for months." the landlord reminded.
"but...i don't have the money now." i replied.
"then , you'll just have to move out." he was and fuming and replied coldly without any mercy.
"but..." he slammed the door before i could finish my sentence.
i walked towards my room and closed the door. i sat on my bed and hugged my knees to my chest. i cried it all out yet again.
------the next day------

laura's POV

my whole body was aching and my eyes were red and puffy. i decided not to go to school as I had to pack up the house. i started off with my own room.