Love At All Cost

Chapter Thirty-Six: Erica Comes Clean Part Two

Cyn POV

Baby crying and screaming

Cyn: MAMA'S COMING BABY! GIVE MAMA A MINUTE * Facing her * Don't Move An Inch Either Cause Yo Ass Is Mine So Don't Get It Twisted Boo

I Took Her Cell Phone So She Won't Make An Escape Plan. While I'm Getting King Milk Ready I Can't Help But Feel Like I Did Something Wrong Or Whatever. It Sickens Me That She Don't Trust Me Cause If She Did We Wouldn't Be In This Situation And I Could Have Helped Her If She Just Opened Up.

I Rushed To My Son's Aid To Find His Face Red And Kicking And Screaming. He Looks At Me And Automatically Stopped Crying. Awww My Baby Missed Me. I Gave Him His Sippy Cup And Tried To Put Him Back In Erica's Bed But He Wasn't Having That So I Just Grabbed His Binkie And Blanket Off Her Bed And Walked In The Living Room Where Erica Was In The Same Spot As I Told Her With A Couple Tears Running Down Her Face.

Erica: Why Isn't He In The Bed ?

Cyn: Cause I'm Not Finna Have My Son Kicking And Screaming In The Bedroom Alone. * Rocking Him Back And Fourth Like A Baby In My Arms* He's Halfway Sleep So He's Good Now Talk* I Growled At Her*

She looks At Terrified At Me. My Own Girlfriend Cant Tell Me Shit. I Feel Hurt And Angered.

Erica: But.. * cutting her off*

Cyn: But Shit Erica Start Talking Before I Beat You To It! Oh You Don't Want Me To Do That * raising My Eyebrow *

Erica: Rich Is My Ex From The Show I Work On Love And Hip Hop. I Just Gave Birth To King And I Was Ghetto And Immature So He Offered To Help Me With My Career And To Get Myself Together For King. Well They Are Right When They Say Don't Mix Work And Pleasure Together. We Got Together And He Cheated On Me And Only Claimed Me Behind Doors. Also Took A Song I Sung And Gave It Way To A non Existing Bitch But I Forgave And Everything Was Good Until I Got Pregnant Again * Cutting Her Off*

Cyn: Whoa Whoa Wait * Putting King In The Bouncer* So You Had Another Kid Erica Wow * Shaking My Leg* Continue

I Don't Even Know What To Feel

Erica: * Tear Up Again * I'm Sorry I Just Didn't Know How To Tell You Baby

Cyn: Whatever I Save My Say For Last Cause I Really Want To Slap You Into Reality Right Now So Fucking Continue

Erica: * Sniffling * Well I Got Pregnant And We Were Happy But Until One Night I Woke Up To Craps And A Bloody Sheet And He Took Me to The Hospital. Thats The Day My Baby Girl Died. We Never Knew What Caused It But It Happened* Crying Lightly* I Started Not To Eat Right. I Mean I Was Healthy Enough For My Breast Milk To Be Good For King But For My Body No. I Started To Change And So Has Rich. He Was Supposed To Be There For Me But He Wasn't. He Was Out Fucking Some Hoe Name Kimbella Then Accused Me Sleeping With Her. We Got Into Fight And It Escalated Into A Big Scene At The Wrong Time And Place. Not To Long After I Was Kidnapped But By Mistake. They Confused Me With Someone Else But Still Kept Me. Since I Was Worth More Than A Hundred Dollars *Sarcastically Laughing * They Fed Me And Stuff But Also Would Like To Play. They Always Avoided My Pussy Cause It Was "tainted " So They Thought. It Was About A Week Later Rich And The Police Found Me. King Was The First Person That Came To Mind So I Ran Off Before They Could Have Got A Case. I Just Dropped The Charges Cause They Were More Armored Then Me At The Time. I Had To Keep My Son Safe So I Brought Him With Me Instead Of Keeping Him In Miami And I Haven't Went Back Since. They Are In Jail Though For Something I Forgot.

As I'm Listening At Her Story I Dont Feel Angry But I'm Hurt Cause She Didn't Tell me Anything And I Got To School For this Type of thing. I Feel Numb And Frozen. I Wish I Can Sing Let It Go And Believe It Can Be That Easy.