Chapter 9- Last day together
Well it’s Thursday… the last day with the guys. Ever since Tuesday me and London have been waking up and running to the bathroom because we keep throwing up. It’s weird because we both started on the same day. The other weird thing is we are only really sick in the morning and during the day we are tired. When we come home from school me and London go straight home and go straight to sleep. We were thinking about going to the doctors but we decided not too since we both hate the doctors haha.
Well now we are hanging with Justin and Chaz. They are taking us to the beach! So we both got changed…
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We walked up to our mirror that’s on our door and look at ourselves. To me I looked a little bit fat.
Me- is it me… or do I look a little bit fatter?
London- same here?
Me- This is weird… we get morning sickness… we are always tired… somehow our moods change every 10 minutes… we look fatter than usual… London…… you don’t think?
London- that we are umm… pregnant?
Me- yeah…
London- there’s a chance… Chaz didn’t use protection… Justin didn’t use protection… there’s a chance.
Me- and if we are?
London- then I don’t know…
Me- well I’m telling you this now… I’m AGAINST (starts to whispers) abortion.
London- same here… you shouldn’t kill a living thing that doesn’t even get a chance to experience the real world. Everyone deserves a chance.
Me- I know… but alright when the guys leave we will take the test
London- and if we are… do we tell the guys?
Me- when the time is right… well if we are
London- well lets go… the guys are waiting
We walked out of the room and went to the living room where the guys were. They looked at us and smiled. I saw Justin looking London up and down and same with Chaz with me. I just laughed and we grabbed the boys to the car. Justin and London sat in the back while Chaz drives and I was in the passenger’s seat. Once we got to the beach I realized we were at the beach that barely any one goes to. We grabbed our stuff and we walked in the sand for a while until we stopped and layed down our stuff.
Justin- want to get in the water
US- sure
So we all stripped down to our bathing suits. Let’s just say I got to see Chaz all muscular(; I could see Chaz was looking at me with his mouth wide open. But… then I realized I looked a little fat and just covered my stomach a little. Chaz came to me and hugged me from behind. I didn’t move my hands so I just let him hug me.
Chaz- you ok babe?
Me- huh?... oh… yeah I’m fine
Chaz- you sure?
Me- yeah… let’s get in the water.
I ran to the water so I didn’t have to hear him talk about me. I want to say I’m not fine… I been sick the past couple of days but I just can’t. Cause he would make me go to the doctors and I might find out I’m pregnant. If im pregnant I want to tell him myself. In private not from a doctor or anything from him thinking I been really sick and I have some sort of disease. Well once I got to the water I just walked in. It was freezing!!! I just kept walking until the water got to my knees. I looked out at the water then closed my eyes. I was thinking about everything that was going to happen. Me and London probably being pregnant, Justin and Chaz being gone for year… I don’t know how I’m going to survive being without him. He is like the one that keeps me living. Without him… I will just die slowly and painfully inside. Once I opened my eyes I took a deep breath in and out. I turned back around and I saw Chaz standing right behind me. I was startled a little bit but I just looked up in his eyes. He knows something is on my mind… I just don’t want to tell him yet.
