Chapter 8- why do you have to go…
Justin and Chaz- we have to talk
Me and London just stayed quiet and just stared at them.
Justin- well you guys know how I been putting up videos of me singing?
We both just nodded.
Justin- well… I got signed… and I’m going on tour for a year…
Chaz- and I’m going with him
We both just looked at them shocked. Why are they doing this?
I just walked away from the door and London stayed where she was. I grabbed my coat and keys. I walked back to the door and went through the guys and started walking. I needed to think things through. I just can’t believe that Chaz and Justin are leaving… and me and London might be pregnant! A year is 12 months… if we are pregnant we are for 9 month… so raising a kid for 3 months by ourselves with no dad… that’s going to be hard. But if we are lucky both of us won’t get pregnant. After a while of walking I realized I led myself to the skate park. I just sat down at the bench. Thinking… thinking of everything that’s happened since I moved. Chaz, New friends, Love, Mikey, the dirty deed, might getting pregnant. I don’t know how I will survive a whole year without Chaz. I love him with all my heart and it seems like he is tearing it apart. Why would he leave me like this? Why choose a best friend over girlfriend? Well I kind of get it… bros before hoes but I’m not a hoe? But I do get it. I would choose my best friend over my boyfriend any time. Even if he is the love of my life. Soon I saw someone walking to me and sat down. I didn’t bother looking up since I was looking down at my feet. I didn’t feel like talking at all… just want to ignore the world. But soon the person talked…
???- I’m sorry Katie… it’s just… Justin is my best friend and I have to go
It was Chaz. I can’t believe he followed me here. He must really care about me. I still looked at my feet… staying quiet and just let him talk.
Chaz- I love you… more than anything. You make me happy, I have a reason to get up in the morning… I don’t want to see you sad cause I’m leaving. I promise when Justin gets breaks we are coming here so I can spend as much time as I can with my baby.
That made me smile a little. But for some reason I felt like he knew about this for a long time. IF he did why did we do it last night. I looked up and looked straight into his eyes.
Me- how long?
Chaz- how long what?
Me- how long have you known… about the tour
This time Chaz looked down. He knew it for a long time I can tell. I wasn’t mad I just wanted to know.
Me- tell me…
Chaz- 2 weeks
Me- why didn’t you tell me?
Chaz- cause I didn’t want you to worry
Me- well I am now… I’m scared
Chaz- why would you be scared?
ME- because… you are going on tour with Justin… there will be tons of way prettier girls than me. I’m scared I’m going to lose you.
Chaz- Katie… you will never lose me… I promise you that. No one… and I mean NO ONE will get in between us.
I smiled and hugged him. I’m really going to miss him.
Me- when are you leaving?
Chaz- what’s today?
Me- Sunday
Chaz- we leave Friday morning.
Me- well we have 4 days together.
Chaz- We are going to spend every second together… and I mean it. We are spending the night at each other’s houses.
Me- okay…
Chaz- promise me that you won’t cheat on me while I’m gone
Me- aww… so I cant kiss other guys (sarcasm and added a little bit of sadness.)
Chaz- haha real funny
I just laughed and gave him a peck on the lips. Soon we got up and walked to my house hand in hand. But right when we got to my house we stopped and we just faced each other.
Chaz- I just have to say something… about last night
Me- umm… okay
Chaz- I’m sorry if I pressured into doing it. If you weren’t ready you should have told me… I can wait. I will wait for you… you are my life now. Cause last night it seemed like you didn’t enjoyed it at all.
Me- you didn’t pressure me at all. I wanted to and you are my world Chaz. I love you with all my heart. I did enjoy it. I wouldn’t want to do it with anyone else… and I mean that
Chaz- okay… I just had to get it off my chest.
Me- alright… I love you
Chaz- I love you too baby
He gave me a long passionate kiss. I love these kisses cause I know he must really love and care about me. That I’m the only one he wants… no one else. Once he pulled away I looked into his eyes and just smiled. He smiled back and I kissed his nose. I grabbed his hand and we walked into the house and went into the living room where Justin and London were watching Push. I haven’t seen this movie in a while. I only saw it once. But it was a good movie. Me and Chaz just sat down on a couch by ourselves. He let me lay on him while watching the movie. Once in a while Chaz would rub my back and make me get shivers up my spine. I could tell he would smile every time he does it. Once the movie was over London found 17 Again so we watched that movie. The point when we saw Zac Efron, I looked at London and she was looking at me smiling.
Me- he is hot huh? Haha
London- Duh! He has a body!
Me- I know!
Justin- you know we are right here?
Chaz- plus we are way hotter then him.
Me- ohh of course honey…
Chaz- thanks for making me feel like I’m not hot
Me- you are… you are such a little kid
Chaz- well what fun would it be if I acted my age?
Me- not that fun
Chaz- exactly
I just laughed and gave him a kiss and continued to watch the movie. This is where and what I want to do every day. Just be with my best friend her boyfriend and my funniest, handsomest boyfriend hanging out watching a movie. Sadly it all goes away Friday… when it’s just going to be me and London for a year…
