Im not good for you

Help me!

When i make it to my room,i pictured events that could happen tonight,and i'm afraid that my past will soon again be my present.I made sure i locked my door.I prayed to God to watch over me.I get out my night clothes and started my bath water with my japanese blossom beads.I sit in deep thought about my life.From when i was born til now,and i realized my life is fucked up in a way, but im surviving.I'm making my own way through it and i should be applauding myself.I'm paying the bills,working and surprisingly making school fit into my schedule.But somehow,i feel like i'm going to self-destruct soon.

I bathed my body and rinsed off.I
Got out and looking at my reflection staring back at me. I believe im ugly but when i was little my mom told me i will always be beautiful.Wonder what she thinks now.(hint sarcasm).After i got dressed i entered my room and seen my dad on my bed,smelling my panties.It was really disturbing.

"Hey babygirl"he said noticing me in MY room,"haha,heyy" i said nervously,Lord knows my body shaking."hows school been?" "Good,nothing to exciting,it's school". I smiled sweetly to keep from showing my fear. " aint no little boys in yeah life right?" Just as he said that,a text from Brandon and jesson came to my phone with a buzz. "Who was that?" "Just some friends texting me the homework" "really,let me see".

I looked at my phone and said "why?" "Cause i know your lying,you and your mother do the same actions when you both lie"
He snatches my phone out my hand and read my messages. "So you fuck two niggas huh?!" "No,what are you talkin ab..." He grabbed me and slammed my on the ground "you still lyin,you know that you don't give any of your pussy away,cause it belongs to
Me". Why all these disgusting ass men thinking they own me
" it don't belong to you,you don't own me,you barely raised me" i said strongly.

"You think you grown,then im treat you like you grown" he pulled down his pants in pulled his private out "Now suck daddy dick like you suppose too" He had it in my face and i had tears coming out my eyes. When he put it half way in my mouth,he grabbed my hair,when it was being thrusting in my mouth,i bite it as hard as i could.He screamed so loud iran out my room,before i could make it to the stairs,he grabbed my ankle and stabbed my leg,i screamed and turnt over and was struggling with my anxiety from being stabbed and fighting for him to get off of me.

I finally reached for a vase that was sitting on a table in the hallway.I hit him over the head and got up and limped down the stairs,to the door,and out of it.I was trying with every fiber in me to run because i don't know where he is and if hes behind me,i ran to a convenience store and ask to use the phone.Every number i called went straight to voice mail.

In the middle of calling my last resort to help.....he walked in.I had to hide in the back,where the cashier could see me. "Have you seen a little choclate girl,long curly hair,maybe alil hurt" I look at the cashier begging him not to say anything," no I haven't sir,im sorry". "Okay,thanks".He exited the store and i proceeded to call jesson.I was anticipating his answer and thank the lord he did. " hello" he said sleepily "Jesson,come help
Me,im stabbed,hes looking for me and i have no one else and he tried to rape me and im scared" "okay,calm down sterling,where you at now". I'm at a convenience store,a couple blocks away from my house"i said crying. "Okay,im on my way now,stand at the door of the store,so i can see you" "okay" and then i hung up.
I waited for 10 mins til i seen jesson's car,i limped outside to his car,he got out and helped me in.I was silent on the way back to his house im guessing.
When we arrived at his house,he carried me out the car,in the house to his bedroom.It was dark in there,so I couldn't see the decor of his room.He patched my stabbed wound up and he asked me softly "who did this and why are they after you?" His voice had so much concern and anger.I was falling in and out of sleep,but when i was in my state of mind,I replied with a trumble "my...................father" and thats when darkness fulfilled me.

-thank god for jesson
-where was sterling mom?
-is she gonna be ok
- stay tuned to find out
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