Im not good for you

I'm not okay

  
Mr.Quinlan came in 10 minutes after we got here.He sat down and looked at the referrals that were sent with us.He read them for about 5 minutes.Then he said "Well sterling,since you witness this altercation go down,please tell me what happened. I basicly told him the whole story from the very begining to the end,where We ended up in here. " Okay....Brandon,i'm gonna let you off with a warning." "It's you first day and you don't know the rules around here"Mr.Quinlan said. He dismissed Brandon out the office. So what is he going to do with me and the douchebag? "Now you two,im disappointed in" he said. "I know sir"jesson said.I'm trying to figure out,when this nigga had manners? "Me too"i said,but still kinda of confused."i know you guys are,so for a sort of punishment,i'm making you buddies for the year". "WHAT!!!!!!!"i said stand up. "What you mean buddies Mr.Q"jesson said seriously.

"You two will be buddies which is being together and learning about eachother and your lives." I couldn't  believe my ears.Mr.Quinlan lost his mind.Not only are we buddies,apparently he's gonna need help in spanish,sooo yay me (note sarcastic).So we walk out of the principals office and look at eachother. "We gonna meet at your house after school,i'll drive us there,are we clear..yes,good"jesson said and walked down the main hallway.I guess i don't get a say in any of this huh;okay👌🏾.

The last bell rang and the teens of rockledge scurried around to get home as quick as possible.I walked to the front of the school, only to see jesson,flirting with some chick.I had a funny feeling in my stomach when i saw them,but I ignored it.Walking up to the car i notice the girl was laci.Maybe he was trying to get a quick nut but i could be wrong.
" okay,i'll call you later" she tried to say seductively.
" okay laci" he said nonchalant. Then he turned around and glanced at me. "You ready?" "Wtf it look like"? "Holllll up, drop the attitude baby because i ain't do nothing to you". He said while getting in his car.I followed after getting in the passenger side.

No conversation was made on the way to my house.The only thing you could hear was when i was telling him the direction to my house and his radio which was currently playing Rico love- they don't know. When we pulled up into my neighborhood,i seen my bus pull up to the stop where we get off and wait. I saw Q and brandon get off and they were laughing and smiling.Ohh how i wish i was with them. Jesson pulled up in my driveway and we departed from the car. When we got to the front door,i put my keys in the lock to unlock the door to see my mother drinking again.She also had company.A few old drunks like her.

"Where tf you been?!" "School where else!?".Then i heard her say to her company " that's the dumb bitch who got my man locked up".
I told jesson were going up stairs,so he followed.We made it to my room and I slammed the door. " you can sit in the bean bag if you want". He sat on the bean and sighed.I sat on my bed and mimicked what he did. We sat silent for 10 minutes before he said " lets get to know eachother now" he said dragging it out.i laughed alil. "Okay". "What's your whole name"he said. "Sterling marie Jenkins,what about you?" Jesson malik walker" "okay,what's you favorite color?" "Blue" "mine is too" i said happily.We did this for like another five minutes til I said " Let's play the 10 fingers". "What's that?" "It's like,i ask a question and if you ever did it you put one  finger down, if you haven't,keep you finger up". "Okay okay,I wanna go first". "Okay". "Have you ever drank before" I put my finger down. " Ayye,say bad gal marie" i smiled. "Have you ever smoked before?" " i smoked ever once in a while ".He put one finger down.Afterwhile,we learned alot about eachother. But then he asked one last question " Have you ever had sex?"His question replayed in my mind over and over again.I didn't really choose to get my innocence tooken away,somebody just took it forcefully.But the sad part is.....it happened to me,and it never stop".well.....i'm not a virgin...but it wasn't my choice to not be one"i said alil bit above a whisper.One tear slid down my face. "Sterling,are you okay?" Jesson said sincerely.I shook my head yes and i feel off my bed and before i could hit the ground,jesson caught me.I cried in his arms for 15 minutes and he didn't say a thing,he just rubbed my back.Tbh,I'm not okay

"Do you wanna talk about it" "Not right now,maybe another time". " It's fine Sterling,whenever you wanna talk,i'll be here,if you want me to be here"he said awkwardly while rubbing the back of his neck.Something is telling me there's more to him than meets the eye,and i'm gonna find out what it is.By that time,it was time for jesson to go.I lowkey wanted him to say but i have work tonight. As i'm walking him to the door my so called "mom" say "was she a good fuck,she uses to opening her legs,so don't think your the first one". "Stfu,we didn't even do anything".I was at the point where i was gonna exploded but i'm trying not to. "Okay sterling,i'll see you tomorrow".He hugged me and he opened the door and left. "Well,you Musta was good if he coming back tomorrow".If looks could kill she would be 6ft under.I marched upstairs and watched jesson leave the drive way through my window.Now it's time to get ready for work.😩