There was a loud thud and I found myself and my best friend Jaime falling onto the couch. I squeezed my eyes shut as we fell. It was an automatic fear reaction for me as a kid. After we settled for a moment I slowly opened my eyes and found myself laying on top of him. His crotch was pressed the shirt right below my bellybutton and I could feel my cheeks heating up in embarrassment. I don't know how long I was sitting there staring up at him, but I was shaken out of my trance by the feeling of someone staring at me. Tony was the one to break the silence. "Are you guys gay?" he asked.
I shot straight up and stood quickly, attempting to cover up my jumpiness by casually adjusting the collar on my blue flower shirt. "I have a girlfriend, you know that," I said, my voice sounding stronger than I felt. I had to play it cool, I'm straight. They know that. But I guess I had to reinforce that so I started storming into the kitchen, sending a glare back at Jaime. I hated to do it, but I had to get my point across somehow. I've been dating Cara a long time. All of them knew that, even Jaime! Then that brought up a very important question, why would he act like that when the cameras weren't rolling? Is Jaime actually gay?!
The thought haunted me as I climbed into my bunk and slid closed the privacy curtain. I laid on my back, my right leg propped up against the wall and my left stretched out comfortably. Jaime's been like my brother since I met him.. Why would he act like this? He can't like me! That would ruin our entire friendship... I thought back to the day we first met, when he had that blonde patch on the front of his hair. He was smiling and grinning when Mike took me to the coffee shop to meet him for the first time. The smile on his face was freaking precious and I couldn't wait to spend more time with him. I felt my pants start to tighten in my crotch area and I was shocked. Why do I have a boner right now? Why didn't I mind cuddling with him just a second ago? Then reality really hit me hard. I really wanted Jaime to be mine. Because I don't want anyone else to hold him close and love him like I do.
