It's not Love, It's Obsession

Chapter 9 - Diamonds

Author's Note: I know the story is not full of details of what is going on, the thing is Rih's telling the story just yet, soit's all in the past and it revolves around what she remembers. So I make it quick so we can go tot he present and see what's gonna go on, on the future. Drianna or Chrianna, what do you think?

It had been over 3 weeks Chris took me home that night, and, for my surprise, he didn't hurt me at all. Well he just tortured me, he raped me, only once and then he kept me locked in the attic we had on our house, it was old and dirty, it smelled really bad. But I thanked God Chris didn't do anything too serious, I really thought he was gonna kill me after that night.

I missed Drake, a lot, but even tho that I was so damn disapointed that we couldn't be together, my guess is, ever, I knew he was ok, because Chris wouldn't touch a finger on him as long as we are apart. The thing about love is that you learn to give up things for the one you love, I, gave up being with him so he could be safe, that's how I knew what I had for him was real. I knew he was ok, but about me, not so much. Ever since we've been apart I've been counting the hours, the seconds, i'm depressed, that's why i don't mind being on that old smelly attic, at least I get to be depressed, alone.

Chirs would often bring me food, he wouldn't even look at my face, I guess he was mad at me at that point. I always wanted to talk to him, see what was going on, if he would ever let me go, if we could work things out, if he would let me be happy, I never really had the guts to do it tho. But one day, I got the courage to tell him something that has been on my head for days

Rihanna: Chris, I'm not feeling very well

Chris: What, what are you feeling?

Rihanna: I'm nauseous and dizzy, my period is late

Chris: Late? For how long?

Rihanna: i don't really know, about 3 weeks I guess

Chris: is that... Normal?

Rihanna: No... I think I'm preg...

Chris: I get it, c'mon I'll take you to a doctor. But if you say something about you beeing locked up in here...

Rihanna: I won't

Chris: Ok, let's go

I followed him and I kinda felt relieved for being in the fresh air again, I took a deep breath and we went to the hospital, as we parked, my body froze. It was Drake's hospital, I guess Chris realized I was scared so he said:

Chris: I know, it's the only one opened now. i'll keep an eye out for him...

We came in and asked for a doctor, Chris asked if Drake was around the nurse said that he hasn't showed up in weeks and that made my heart hurt more, that meant he wasn't alright or maybe he was in a trip. Next thing I know was me and Chris at a room waiting on the doctor, I had already changed into those special hospital clothes and Chris was next to me. 

Chris: You know, if you're really pregnant, maybe we can work things out...

Rihanna: I'd like that, really

Chris: me too

Doctor: Alright, what do we have here?

He said referring to me, i told him that I was suspicious about being with child and he made the exam. He put a very cold thing into my belly and started rubbing a machine into it, after a few seconds we could see on the screen my uterus and a very tiny little dot, my child. At that moment everything around me became good, I forgot about everything that was going on and that had past. Right now, I had to worry about someone else other than me, it was just a little dot, but it was my favorite life in the whole world.

Chris and I came back home that day and we solved things out, I wasn't happy, something didn't let me be totally happy. I knew that this child was gonna be so loved, it already is, but, I missed something. I decided I needed to go talk to Drake, I knew the child was his, because we didn't us protection that night and Chris and I did. Well let's just say, another mistake, I don't know why I always keep doing the wrong things, what is wrong with me?

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Time went by, I couldn't even notice it going, me and Chirs ''worked'' things out and my belly was already starting to show and I'm loving my pregnancy. I'm still kinda sad because the dad of my child isn't here, I decided to drop the idea of talking to Drake, I mean, I didn't want Chris to find out, right now I had to look out for my child, well myself, so I wouldn't do anything that would ahrm any of us.

I was 4 months old and I had a doctor appointment that day, on the same hospital Drake worked at. Chirs probably didn't remember that because he told me to go by myself, he had to work on a few things. I came in shaking, I didn't know if i wanted to run by Drake or if I didn't want to.

Well remember I told you, love always finds its way? Well true love always does.

I saw him, with that white robe doctors use, he was taking care of a sick kid, the kid was really cute and she smiled form ear to ear when Drake gave her a lollipop. He hadn't seen me, I didn't know if I was gonna talk to him or not, so I just did. Another mistake

Rihanna: hey...

He saw me and said an awakward ''hey'' and then looked me up and down, he stopped right at my belly, I was wearing a really tight shirt.

Rihanna: yeah... You know, I...

Drake: Is he around?

Rihanna: Not right now... Look Drake I'm really sorry I...

Drake: Is it mine?

Rihanna: ...... yeah

Drake: How do you know?

Rihanna: By the date

Drake: But you came back with Chris that day too

Rihanna: I didn't come back with him, I didn't have a choice! And also, we didn't use protection, remember?

Drake: Yeah.... *smiles* I missed you

Those three words, those eyes, those lips, that smile, it just drove me crazy. I had no idea what to do, I said it back, because I really meant it. And then he came closer and he gave me a hug. My belly was pressed against his and the baby kicked, he felt it too. Drake smiled and rubbed my belly happily, that made me cry, cuz I didn't know if he was gonna be able to be the dad, to be around my child.

Rihanna: Look, I don't want to come in on this again

Drake: I understand, but... The baby, I have the right to...

Rihanna: I know, but... I'm sorry, I have a doctor's appointment now, I gotta go

Drake: Rih don't leave me again

 I had turned around to leave and when he said that I turned to face him again. You know what? I don't want to be depressed, I want my kid to have his dad!

Rihanna: We have to run away then, are you whiling to leave everything for me?

Drake: I'd do anything to be with you again Rih... For real. Nothing is gonna tear is apart agian, I promise.

He kissed me and I lost myself for a few minutes. I chose to be happy and I'll be. Fuck Chris

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Sorry for the msitakes, I didn't proofread it