Better With Revenge

5th Revenge

5th Revenge

Song of the Chapter - Fuckin Perfect by Pink

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Juliette POV

"So this is where you've been all this time bitch." I didn't bat an eyelash at Arthure and just blankly stared at the empty spot in front of me. This seemed to infuriate him so he grabbed my hair and pulled on it as hard as he could.

"Look at me when I'm talking slut." He pulled harder making me whimper out of reflex. My brown hair was beginning to pull out from his hold when Martyn finally showed up which made Arthure lessen his grip. Martyn was just standing there inspecting the area where Leo had been. Was he out of bounds already? I think he is, he did have a body of an athlete.

[We should've made sure he got away safely Julie.] Ivory said. She felt that she was somehow indebted to his wolf, which I just found out was named Luft (lol it rhymed a little), even though he kind of lied to her, she's worried for him ...

Guess both of us have the same kind heart.

"What are you smiling at?" Arthure tugged on my hair making me hold back a yelp. "Ugh nevermind. Stand up and fix yourself, Ron has been looking for you."

My heartstrings suddenly pulled a little in my chest which made me a little happy. Was my twin finally going back to normal?

[Not likely] my inner voice, the voice which always speaks the truth aka my alter ego, said. And with that I let my shoulders sag just like my hopes.

I stood up, tying the brown belt that the coat had to hide my body. I didn't want them to look at me with disgust, and I didn't want to look like a slut showing off my body like that. [But why wasn't I this concious with Leo?]

We walked towards the pack house, passing through several snares that we're disassembled. I didn't have time to inspect them but judging by how frustrated the disassembling looked, they were made pretty well.

"Where were you!?" A voiced boomed from inside the house. I instantly cowered behind Martyn, making him snarl in return but didn't mind me in the end. I held a tight grip on his shirt, which I just noticed was brand new. I will seriously be getting an earful later.

"Arthure, where the heck is she!?"

"Behind Martyn." Arthure replied.

I was still cowering but Martyn stepped aside to make way for a very angry Alpha. I settled my nerves a little, yeah just a little, and made myself ready to face the wrath of my brother.

"Juliette..." His voice was seething with rage and I tried to look anywhere but him. I can't do this, I'm too scared.

"Where were you?" He asked.

"Near the sea.." I answered weakly.

"And why were you there?"

"I ... I wanted to enjoy the fresh sea air." I heard someone scoff, most likely Arthure. I am not very good with lying and I come up with the most pityful excuse under pressure. [Another 'perk' of being a failure] I thought.

"Well next time tell someone where you're going. I don't want someone getting hurt by a rogue."

I had relaxed a little when he said that and I knew he never wanted to but the look in his eyes made me feel all warm and loved inside. It must be his Alpha instincts. After all I am still a pack member & an Alpha NEEDS to care for his pack... even if he hates them. Thinking that I lost all warm feelings again.

I made my way back to my own room and took a quick shower. The water felt nice after being dirty all afternoon so I stayed longer than I normally would. I was thinking about random things when I suddenly thought of killing myself.

[What if I killed myself right here and now? Would people care? Notice that I wasn't here anymore? Moreover would they bother burying me?]

I imagined drowning myself and losing my life. Ron would run up to my room and knock asking why I haven't made dinner and when I didn't answer he breaks down the door.

He'll look for me but he couldn't find me anywhere in my room so he took a look in the bathroom and saw my lifeless body. He would panic and mindlink someone to come help him.

He'll take me out of the water and put a bathrobe on me. He'll try to wake me up but it was already too late, I can't go back anymore.

Somehow, he'll cry and say sorry. He'll tell me that he loved me as his sister and would've done things different if he could. He held me in his arms until a pack doctor came and whisk me away to an unknown place.

[What are you thinking Juliette? You're delusional.] I snapped out of my thoughts and pulled my knees closer to me. I didn't notice myself sitting onto the tub.

[That would never happen. You are disgusting. Not worth any time and especially love. Nobody would miss you when you're gone. Remember ... nobody cares for someone who's not perfect.] My alter ego made me lose all hope. She was right. I am not worth the time.

I got out of the shower, dismissing the thought of drowning or killing myself. I shouldn't give my pack the trouble of burying my useless body.

"Freak! Come down here!?" Martyn yelled from downstairs.

[Where the hell did he get that class A nickname?] Sarcasm at its best ladies and gentlemen.

I put on a t-shirt and a pair of jeans and quickly made it downstairs.

"You called Martyn?" I didn't even try to hide my sarcasm. He was sitting on the couch with some of the people who always scar me ... great.

"Prepare food for tomorrow, we're throwing a party for your brother." Was all he said.

Oh right, Ron's turning 16 tomorrow, good for him.

Wait, we're twins ... oh great.

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