the makeover ; jdb

Chapter 23

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Angie's POV

For the past 3 days I've been staying in my room. Only James and Kaitlin have came into my room most of the time.

I've been listening to Melanie Martinez (a.k.a. Mom) all the time. Her songs are amazing and they make me feel.. I don't know.. Some what sadder than I already am but I don't mind. I hope I die in sadness or just at how I haven't eaten in 3 days. The only reason that I've gotten out of my room is to pee and get water cause no body is nice enough to even give me a glass of water but I don't care, I deserve it at how crappy I've been to them.

I should've seen it coming though. Jai needs help. Or is it me? I don't know but I just want to crawl in a hole and die. Since it was about 9:00 am and I was all alone listening to Mad Hatter by Melanie Martinez, I climbed out my window and climbed up again to the roof since I had a balcony that I can't even look at because most of the moments I had with Jai alone were here.

The sunset reminds me of my mum that I love. I always loved watching the sunset with her. I missed her warms arms around my me while we were on the roof watching the beautiful sunset.

I closed by eyes enjoying the breeze hitting my face. But once again I look down.. I get closer to the tip of the roof and look down.

The rock hard grass under neath me and Melanie screaming into my ear.

" don't do it" he said behind me.

" please" he begged.

" why do you care" I stand up and start walking along the border not scared if I loose my balance and fall off, then all of the sudden the sun disappeared and the sky was all gray.

Watching my every move, he started saying something else but got interrupted by my singing.

"I'm nuts, baby I'm mad the craziest friend that you've ever had

You think I'm psycho, you think I'm gone, tell the psychiatrist something is wrong.

Over the gun, entirely bonkers you like me best when I'm off my rocker

Tell me a secret I'm not alarm so what if I'm crazy the best people are."

Then purposely almost loosing my balance making him scream.

" Opps" I said laughing.

" Angie please just come over here" he came coming closer to me by the second.

" DON'T COME NEAR ME "

" I'm just trying to help"

" well guess what your not! Ok your the one who broke my heart. Do you think you can just tape my heart back together! Your the one who made me like this. I didn't decide to be like this! You won ok! You won you can now stop doing this to me because you won! " I screamed at him with tears falling down my face.

" what did I do to you?" I questioned to him, only leaving him in silence.

" just please stop trying to make everything better." I started laughing

I stood back up and once again walked along the sides of the border of the roof.

" hahahahaha" I laughed at my demons.

Whenever I get depressed I start talking to my demons and yes we all have demons.. All of us even me.

My demons talk and talk about how I should commit suicide

" stop" I said.

And he is still there staring at me with guilt and some what scared cause I'm laughing but that's what happens to psychos.

And I jumped..

Into the balcony

I could hear Jai's screams boom through my head but I don't care.

Nothing hurts. I basically just jumped 6 feet and nothing hurts.

Mostly because I'm numb at how much pain I'm in.

I sat down with my feet dangling down off the rail.

I see a sight of Giggle and write everything that just happened.

Then I hear a bunch of footsteps in the front of my door.

Jai's POV

That was the scariest thing ever.

Her bloodshot eyes filled my body with guilt

The way she laughed made me understand that she had some problems.

Those people in movies that laugh when ever they cut or hurt themselves.

She's one of those but I couldn't care less right now.

She is so close to killing herself, walking around the border if she just slips then she could just easily end it.

I never knew she reacted this way.

Her hair slightly messed up but still beautiful, no glasses and she's wearing an over sized T-shirt and black long high-knee socks.

What scared me was that she wasn't scared ,or so I thought.

And all of that was my fault.