the makeover ; jdb

Chapter 30

After the teens choice awards, we all went home and did our own thing.

Each one of the boys took a shower cause they were covered in mostly black paint.
After anything else happened
Luke and Kaitlin went into their room doing gosh knows what.

Amanda and Beau also went into the room beau and Skip were sharing.

James and Skip stayed downstairs watching soccer.

And last but not least Jai and I went into my room. Silence filled the room until Jai broke it. " your very different from the other girls, you know?"

" I don't actually know"

" well, you act different from all the other girls, your very fun and active most of the time which always makes me want to be around you. I've never felt the way I do when I'm with you. " he smiled a cheeky smile.

" you can feel ever better when your in me " I smirked.

His eyes widened as he understood what I just said. I swiftly made my way over to Jai and sat on his lap. Wrapping my arms around his neck and my crotch right on top of his.

I made my way down to his neck and planted wet kisses in a trail all the way down to his collar bone to where his shirt was.

" you also don't throw y-yourself onto me like the o-other girls. Sure you sexually frustrate me cause I can't physically do the things I want to do to your
perfect body, with all of your beautiful curves but you play hard to get and I like that."

" I didn't know you thought about me that way Brooks"

" I know I shouldn't be telling you this.." He said coming closer to my ear " but I have sexual fantasies every day about you"

" but most of the time you're with me?"

" but most of the time you fall asleep first." He whispered biting my earlobe.

" I never knew we could ever become so close." I smiled through all the voices in my head complaining about how cheesy that sounded.

" I know we haven't had the best past but Im truly desired to change just for you" he said his voice just below a whisper.

I could see it in his eyes, there was something different not just sorrow. Something else I don't know.
I tilted my head slightly looking deeper into his eyes trying to reach into his soul.

But he just blinked away his feelings. " when did you start cutting." He signed trying to make conversation.

" don't ask questions you know the answer to. Your much smarter than that." I smiled copying the exact same words as American Horror Story.

He smiled knowing what I was referring to. " tell me what you thought about me." I said.

He signed once again and said " I don't want to hurt your feelin-"

" I don't have feelings, so you can go on say whatever you want to say." The voices in my mind spook out loud.

"I never really liked you at school.... Your style, hair, face..."

" yeah., no one really ever liked me instead of my only 2 friends"

" until one day, you decided to change. You changed everything about yourself. Your hair, your glasses, style, attitude. Which only made me grow more guilty than I already was. I never meant to try and make you cut, i thought you didn't even know what cutting was but apparently I was wrong." He said a long speech.
" yeah, no one really knows who I am until I let them in."

" am I in?" He questioned but only made me think the worst.

" I don't know are you? " I smirked.
And let me just clear things up. Yes I am still sitting on his lap, with my crotch still right on top oh his. Feeling it harden every once in awhile, Everytime I moved.

He suddenly flipped us over. Him straddling over me holding him up by his arms right beside my shoulders.

He connected our lips for the first time in a while. And according to my heart, I kissed back.

After the kiss we shared for a few more other seconds. He looks into my eyes filled with lust and whispers

   I'm sorry, my princess.