I'm covered in these wounds not worth having, not excepting that they see me as the one who can bring smiles to all for miles, but I hide there in the bathroom, torn about the question on why my life matters, yet those who love me convince me my battle scars each tell a story, you yell because your scared that one day my song will end as yours continues, I love my entire family and my loving girlfriend, who knows my past and sees my scars, I love her so much, hiding these emotions I hide, time to get them back, to the girl smashed to the locker, the boy who they beat till he cuts, they try so hard, but can't keep it up, the charade happiness can hide, depression, the silent killer, in broken hearts, I sit here and think, well where do I begin, I have been in this room and in this role a thousand times, the same words fly through this mind of steel, my heart made of pure gold, takes these bad things I hear all over the town, where do I go with this, you walk in and look me in the eyes and know my smile is fake, you call me out in the moment, tell me that it needs to end right here, I was scared to tell you for the fear that you would scream at me, I tried to hide this fear, I loved you so, for you told me that I could be the one, and I sit here and think I can be yours, if not for me, you would not be in that bed with my hoodie, with a hint of my boyhood smell, and the embarkment of the heat of my love, I never realized that I could be the only one, the world taken off my shoulders, and set down to give me a rest, key steps to forgive these scars, I sit in this room contemplating the same day over and over, I love you baby, I am stuck in a maze of feelings, I don't know which lie to take as truth, which way do I go, where will it lead, depression, anger, happiness, love, where does it all lead, why do I feel so lost, why does my own head oppose me, my own enemy, I'm far to young for the people to say they hate me, its all a lie, I won't except it, I'm me, I love me, you showed me the door to where I needed to go, its all a sad sad poem, as the slowly ticking time bomb goes to a click, this songs not over, my life is not over, my beat isn't over, the song my life makes isn't done, I don't know where my heart will take me, but its key steps to heal, I sit with my hands to my eyes trying not to show my emotion, they have so much trust for me, I freak out they will see what's real, I should have been ready for the feeling of a true love with someone that has about the same history, never wanted to make me cry, your my life, your my soul, they push me out, but you don't want to follow the instructions of the system, you are strong, and we will be together forever, you are the only Ray of hope, this all comes from my big heart, this is all real life, I can finally rest, can I finally smile, and see that I'm beautiful, you called me and told me you love me. I'm trying to be like my idol, Mikel I don't think you will see this, but you have a soul that will always inspire me to be more, you, are my friend in my head, I watched everything you went through, I cried for you, I wished you were in better shape on your mental state, I wish you could see that you are my idol, my inspiration, my hero, continue, your works not done, you will be the reason I start my new life and my new thoughts,,,, I am a survivor, you are too,
