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Last Days Ricochets

I would like to remember everything, every little details.

When we were good friends and not good strangers.

His laugh was misleading; his smile was deceiving. His eyes lit up in a mistookable way and his gestures were unending.

He was successful, oh so successful - in making me fell heels upon head on his world.

Too much noise and too much spill, everyone were deceived into his world.

I had never believed so much, not even in myself, because I was never really the proud Mary.

Doubletime, you had me playing in a stupid game of happy bubbles and fake butterflies.

Can I not repeat the same mistake? Can I prevent my heart from growing bigger?

Oh, oh, even without worrying, he blew me up, he shrank my hardly sewn pieces of heart.

Strings were broke, feelings got loose, I had goosebumps in my tears.

You see, I wanted you, him, but you, him, crossed over to the dark side, with lust and joy no one had in mind.

Question: What did you feel?

Answer: Useless. Pointless?

Question: Why are you asking back?

Answer: I don't know, why are you?

No promises were broken, no verses were outlined; no feelings were shared, no heart was united.

Gleaming things will die, eventually, eventually, eventually, they will lose their shine; shunned, dark, alone and fixed by messy patches.

So I only wished you happiness, I wished you your true love.

I never wished you to accept me.

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Today was amazing, yet perplexing.

The shore reflected the sun, and waves raced towards our feet.

Laughter decorated with joyous scream. The sound of splashing water collided with the sound of feet stomping upon the sand.

The sky was clear and the wind created music. Shells were floating and picked up. I stood there, brushing the salt off my skin.

Sand fight broke, and things got messy. Smile was contagious as we fell into the sea and soaked ourself.

The girls took pictures, and the boys raced against the ocean waves.

I stood there, avoiding the sand fight.

You stood there, having the time of your life with your friends.

And I got hit, and pushed into the sea - laughing hard, salty liquid crawled under my shirt.

We laughed, and our play started.

We were having fun.

And I looked at you. The sun, showering your skin with golden layer. You smiled and brushed the back of your hair with your fingers.

Even with water dripping from your hair, you were incredible. Breath-taking.

You were perfect.

And it made me question if it was a sin for me to fell for you.

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Drilling a stare at my polished nails, the pearly pink color smiled.