Mind's Collection

I cried...

~Dedicated to wingedwolf76~

I cried.

Tonight.

I was vunerable, and then woke up in the hands of chaos.

The pair of you struggled in dominace. We tore you apart. But the both of you continued....

Like we weren't there.

Like we were tiny figurines trapped in a glass case.

Because the words that were spewing out of your mouths were more important to you than what was heard.

Those words bounced off the walls of the room.

They bounced off the walls of my mind.

And you still kept at it.

Even with the evidence clear on your faces, you still pushed each other to  the limit.

We separated you two to different levels but you both still wanted to burn the house down.

And when one of you left...

I cried.

I cried like I've never cried before in seventeen years.

I cried with livid.
I cried with hatred.
I cried with questions.

Questions that no one should ask themselves.

I rocked back and forth.
I hugged my knees closer to my chest.

And cried.

I've exceeded my limit.
I've breakdown just to build back up again.
I've become weak to get stronger.

This is a never-ending cycle with the pair of you.
Fix yourselves before you lose the screws and bolts to your limbs.
Because you will tear each other apart if  you two stay  together.

You keep secrets, you jump to conclusions and then lash out.
But I have to hold it in and it's not fair.
I have to hold in the hot clear angry tears that I have for you both.

You're both the cause of this yet you don't know it.
You didn't know that I continously screamed into my pillow.

Was wrong of me to imagine your face while I punched my pillow?

I felt that my pillow was too soft to be a punching bag, and so I weighed my options....
My mattress was too bouncy.
Either the  wall would get damaged or my fist would.

So I sat in the dark while sobs took control of my body.
Shaking my body and constricting my throat.

It's your fault that I've become this mess.

It's your fault that I cried tonight.