Mind's Collection

Gone...

~ Dedicated to loverofpizzaqueen~

We have become so close in the last twenty five days.
You told me your name and I told you mine.

Our birthdays...

Our situations....

For me it was meeting a new stranger on the street, when they dropped their phone right beside me.

We were close yet so far in distance.
The time was 8:37pm here and it was 3:37pm over where you were, when we fist met.

A smile slipped on my lips as I wrote back to you.

We wrote about who we were talking to on Internet, how our days were, and whatever we were doing in that moment.

And while I was asleep and you where still up, in that moment something shifted.

I woke up, and thirty seconds later my heart was in race mode.
It was filled with worry and doubts, my mind only thought about....

You.

What has happened to you?

Who had done this to you?

How had this happened to you?

You slipped through my fingers just like water.
I lost you in the wind like you were a spec of dust
You swam out too far, until you merged into one colour with the deep blue sea.

You were Gone.

Gone.

Who is the culprit?

What caused your disappearance?

I'll let you know I'm worried and scared you haven't replied in the twelve hours, but I'm patient.

I'll wait another 12 hours.
I'll wait another day.
I'll wait another month if I have to.
(It hurts to say that.)

Because I can't deal with the fact that your gone.
I won't deal with the fact that you took your leave
I won't deal with the fact that I didn't get to say goodbye.

I don't want this to be a goodbye.
I don't want you to leave.
I need you to stay.

It may be selfish of me.

You have your reasons...but what about mine?

I want you to stay, because you make me smile.

Because you make me feel warm.

Because I feel determined to make you smile, I don't know if I do that.

But strive to do that.
I strive give you what you give to me, because I want you to stay.

Please don't go, you don't need to leave, you feel like you do but you don't.
you don't need to walk out my life.

I wouldn't forgive myself if something dangerous happened to you.
I'm trying to think of a reason as to why you'd want to leave, but came to no conclusion when all you have is me.

Slowly inside I'm slowly discentgrating until I turn into a shell with dust.

Until I'm gone too...