Mind's Collection

Tiny Alleyway

I ran on the streets away from what I had seen and heard,  the pavements weaving in and out of each other, swallowing my trail behind me.

But I could still hear him after me.

I turned left into an alleyway between a pub and a grocery store. My heart stop as I registered a brick wall ahead, with defeat weighing down  on my shoulders, I came to a stop.

"Christine! " my head whipped round to my chaser as he turned into the alley way. I backed up at a steady pace to the brick wall - the shady area reflecting how I felt.

Small and Gloomy.

With Brian entering my personal space as he walked towards me with caution, made me feel smaller every second. He gently grazed my cheek and let his lips brush my forehead, whispering sorry to me. The gesture sent a chill my spine.

I tried to remove stress and frustration, but it built up a storm within me. I was slowly being tormented with the images of my future without the one person I needed.

My throat was closing up making it harder to breath.

"He's gone." I choked out. I was swimming in my sea of emotions. Strong waves of anger and greif pulled me deeper into the abyss, "Dad's gone."

I repeated what he doctors told at the hospital. My anger could cause eathquakes in Asia. My greif would immersed the US and Africa in my tears. My heartache could cause hurricanes in Europe.

But none of that would bring him back.

My world came crashing down as I came to terms with the rough reality of that moment. That things will never be the same.

And Brian was the only one to hold me, in the tiny alleyway.