Afraid to Love ✔

Part 4

(A month or so after the photoshoot)

Laurent

After seeing Mia, I can't keep my mind off her. I try to focus on dancing, but my thoughts would return to watching her every move on that bed. I forget choreography, miss cues, and mess everything up. I have to get her out of my system or possess her completely. I can't even decide which to do but my lack of decisiveness is adding to my new permanent bad mood.

I decide whatever I am going to do I need to see her to make it happen. I occupy my time by hanging out with my brother but my brother was spending more and more time with Mai, who was more than happy flying to where ever, whenever Larry asked. The more time I spent with her the more I saw she nothing like Mia, they didn't really look alike to me. Even though they are twins, I saw differences in Mai. For starters, Mai looks older, her voice is harsher, her smile no real, so is her laugh, the look in her eyes when she laughs is empty, the way she walks is wrong...they are completely different from each other. Oh and Mai is beyond pushy.
"I heard that you both model, but you've been so busy with your tour and workshops you haven't had much time for anything else. I have a client searching for male models for a magazine, it would take 4 maybe 5 hours of your time and the pay would be pretty good. Can I call your agent to set it up?" Mai's gaze moves between my brother and I as she waits for an answer.
Lately, it seems Mai has been constantly offering us information on jobs. My brother looks at her suspiciously but he agreed, earning him a death glare from me. He didn't even ask me! He just sighs and walks away I don't really blame him, my decisions, when I can make one, have been halfhearted at best lately.
"Great! I will clear it and see if they can work it around your schedule." Mai smiles. Even her smile lacks warmth, she is nothing like Mia.
Her smile was like warm sunshine on a chilly day. Her laughter was like angels kisses your heart. I should apologize for last time, I know she thought I was ignoring her. I had to explain that wasn't my intention, but I'm going to need help. Could I ask Mai? She just smiled at me when I look at her. I take a breath, okay I can do this.
"How's your sister doing?" I ask, that sounded like a normal question, right?
"Officially, she's taking some time off to recover from her tour." Mai voice had a hint of worry. What wasn't she telling us?
"She in Paris?" I press.
"No, she wanted to get away from m- for a while." Mai answers, then looking at me directly. "What's up, thought you weren't interested?" She sounds uninterested but she looks like she stumbled onto some juicy gossip.
"I want to apologize for no be nicer, I feel bad." She nods but doesn't say anything. "I take a nap. Wake me before when it time." I tell Larry when he comes back.
"He seems okay to me," Mai says to my brother as I walk towards the bedroom. A few seconds later I hear her giggle, nothing like Mia's laugh. I frown.
Falling face down on the bed I try to calm my mind but not even sleep would stop my thoughts of Mia. My dreams were full of her. Her warm smile, her laugh, the way her body moves, I pull her to me and hold her tight.
"Fuck you dreaming about Bro?" Why Larry irritating voice in my dream? I try to focus on Mia but she was gone.
"Lau!" Larry yells.
Blinking my eyes open, I am holding Larry is on the bed with me. I release his arm then sat up.
"Mai leave?" I ask trying to avoid his question.
"Yeah she went back to Paris. What you dreaming?" Larry peers into my face.
"Don't worry about it! Get off my bed! I need to sleep!" I push him away, anxious to get back sleep, back to Mia.
"Lau, I came for see you ready." Larry looks at the time. I quickly grab my stuff and head out.

(Italy 6 month's later)

Mai

After several months of Laurent dragging his brother to any and every club on their tour route, Larry asks me for a favor. He wants me to arrange a meeting with Mia, maybe come to one of their performances or club appearances. I wasn't sure how I was going to do that but I promised I would make it happen.