Cutting Addiction!

Chapter 9: The Water Park

Hey it's Taylor!

I swam back up to the top of the water and i sat up against the ledge of the pool and i started thinking about some stuff.

Chris is like my brother he has been there for me through thick and thin. He not my real brother but he practically is. I really like him an Lauren is really lucky to have him. He's very protective.

I didn't realize that Chris was trying to talk to me. He shook me out of my thinking zone.

"Do you want to go on the water slides?" He asked laughing.

"Sure." I said getting out of the pool.

"What's wrong?" He grabbed my waist and pulled to towards him into a hug.

"Nothing." I returned the hug.

"There's something wrong tell me please!" He hugged me one last time.

"Well i really like you because you have always been there for me no matter what, even if you made me mad or something you always were there next to me ready to talk when i wanted. If it was your fault you just stood next to me trying to make it better. Your fucking hot and Lauren needs you more than i do. I'm ugly and i don't deserve you being there for me all the time. My razors will be there for me. My scars make me uglier." I pushed him away.

"I really like you to, but i love lauren with all my heart. I will always be there for you no matter what. Yea i made you cry a couple times by yelling at you. You hate being yelled at or just regular yelling, you start to cry. Once i saw your face when i was done yelling at you my heart broke in a million pieces and when you took off i chased after you and got in front of you. You stopped and i gave you a hug and told you that i was sorry. Then you finally forgave me. Lauren don't need me more than you do. Your not ugly your beautiful and you do deserve me there for you all the time. I will make sure that you don't cut. Your scars are beautiful. Nothing can make you ugly you your cuts your scars are fucking beautiful and i don't know how you can't notice that." He said walking in front of me and turning around to face me.

While he was saying that he put his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to him.

"Just admit it I'm ugly." I said with my hair in my face so he wouldn't see me crying.

"No im not gonna lie to you your beautiful." Pushed the hair out of my face and kissed me on my forehead.

We skipped lunch and i was really hungry.

"Im hungry I'm going to find Austin wanna come?" I said reaching my hand out behind me waiting for him to grab my hand. (Yes we hold hands and when i'm upset he gives me a kiss on my forehead. He's my brother so it not like Lauren can can get mad or anything.)

He grabbed my hand and we were walking to where we seen him last. He wasn't there so we went to the hot tub and he wasn't there either. We all have phones with water proof cases so i texted him.

Where are you

-Tay

Water slide

-Austin

Who are you with

-Tay

Breanna

-Austin

Ok meet me by the pool.

-Tay

"Ok Austin an Breanna is gonna meet us here in a few minutes." I said grabbing Chris' hand again.