Real

Chapter 6

It felt like I only slept for an hour, but the 'hour' was worth it. I didn't have any nightmares so therefore, THANK GOD. I was actually feeling fine, despite my tiredness. Then I remembered that this is the day. The day I'll probably never see the light again, the day I could die. Anxiety slowly started to take over me as I started thinking about it too much. If I die in that arena I'll never know if Finnick really liked me. I'll never know if he'd make it. I'll never know if Johanna, Peeta and Katniss would make it. And the most important thing of all; I'll never know what happened to the districts, would they finally start a revolution? Or would they just continue with these horrible games just to keep the population from overgrowing? All these questions in my head that I can't answer myself. All these breaths getting faster and faster. I feel like the walls are slowly closing in on me. Screams echoing in my head. They tell me to stop... And I know that I can't stop. It's my brain that's controlling me and driving me nuts. It feels like I'm-
"Morning, time to get to- Oh god." I snapped my head toward the voice that seemed not to come from the inside of my head. It was Johanna.
"You okay?" She came and sat down beside me on the bed and put an arm around me. Woah I suddenly realised I was wheezing uncontrollably.
"I'd rather not talk about it." I answered and sighed, trying to clear my head and relax my breathing the best I could.
"Okay, fine. But you really should get dressed and come down to breakfast. I'll meet you there in five, okay?" Johanna walked up to the door and stared at me.
"Uh... Yeah. Is it fine if Finnick sits with us?" I asked shyly while scratching my neck, avoiding eyecontact. Silence. I looked up and saw Johanna smirking.
"Finnick huh?" She laughed while I felt really embarrassed for asking such a thing.
"Sure. Just be careful of what you wish for. I'm serious." Johanna said as I looked at her confused and with a slight smile.
I nodded slowly and then she disappeared out the door. I quickly shuffled to the wardrobe and took out some black training leggings, a black sportsbra, black socks and a gray t-shirt. I put them on and found a pair of black trainers beside the bed. I slid them on and quickly brushed my short strawberry blonde hair and ran down the hall. As I was running I realised that I don't even know where the breakfast is held. There was noise coming from downstairs so I figured the breakfast would be where the most sound came from. When I came to the end of the long plain white hallway I quickly went down the spiral metal stairs to come down to another hallway.
"What the hell is with these hallways?" I mumbled annoyingly to myself as I quickened my pace to the end of the hallway. The sounds were clearly louder now so I must be near. I turned to the left and found a big door that was open. Hallelujah, I thought to myself, I finally found the dining room. There were many people who were eating at this hour, and it's only 6.30 A.M. The room was really big and plain white, just as the hallways. No pictures on the wall, not even a carpet nor curtains. I went up to a buffet-like table with lots of fresh bread, cereal, juice, bacon, eggs and fruits. I took a little bit of everything and scanned through the massive room to find Johanna and Finnick. I finally spotted them when Finnick waved at me. I felt a shiver down my spine and smiled back at him. As I made my way to the table where Finnick and Johanna was I saw Katniss and Peeta in another table, talking really low to each other. Katniss made eyecontact with me as I went past Peeta. It felt really weird, knowing that they don't know me but I know them as 'old friends'. And I want to know how it's possible that I know them from before. First I woke up in District 7 and that family told me that they've never seen me there before... Could I've been hiding somewhere? No, probably not because someone would've most likely found me. There is definitely someone keeping secrets and not telling me how I appeared here out of the blue with a terribly bad memory of my past.
"Morning, love." Finnick said sweetly as I sat down beside Johanna, having Finnick sitting on the other side of the table in front of me.
"Morning guys." I said to both of them. Johanna nodded and continued her half finished plate of breakfast goodness. Since none of my 'new' friends were talking I decided to start eating. When I started eating I couldn't help but think about the upcoming Quarter Quell. I hope I could make allies. I mean Johanna seems to already be on about that thing because she offered me training when I really wasn't allowed to. I really don't have any time to make new friends anymore so I guess it'll be Johanna and myself, maybe Finnick. He is really nice and all but the words Johanna said earlier this morning still circled around my head. There could be something he hasn't told me, he seems almost too nice. As I was having an internal dialog with myself I scanned the room. My gaze went to Finnick and oddly enough he was staring at me. He quickly darted his eyes elsewhere. I saw a slight blush rise up his cheeks as he cleared his throat and went back to eating. I really didn't caught him off guard, did I?
"So Lucy, about the training... Finnick also agreed to train you, so we'll be doing it in separate workout passes. I'll do an hour with you first, and then you'll be training with Finnick an hour." Johanna said nonchalantly and took a sip of her juice. I turned my gaze to my lap and bit my lip.
"I- I don't think I can train nonstop for 2 hours... I am definitely not in shape." I mumbled and started to feel like crying. This was why I was going to die.
"Hey, It's okay. It's not like we're nonstop training. We'll take a few breaks and have lots of different varieties of training. All doesn't require strength, many things require brain, logic and skill." Finnick explained with a calming voice. I looked up at him and saw something what I felt like was trust in his eyes. I nodded but kept thinking the same thing over and over again. I was going to die.

A/N

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