Love Me, Alpha (BWWM) [Book Two]

Chapter 29: Pleasureful Remorse

Tenson's P.O.V.

I still couldn't believe Loki would cheat on Gwen, he seemed so infatuated with her that I never thought he would do that.

''Why did you do it?'', I asked.

''I don't know,'' he replied.

''Do you still love her?'', I asked.

''Of course Tenson. I will always love Gwen,'' he said.

''I just don't get it,'' I said.

''I don't either, but sometimes we do things that we don't understand. All I know is that I don't want to do it again. I just feel like I'm going crazy,'' he said as he pulled on his hair.

''Maybe you are,'' I said.

''I don't know, it's like when I was fucking that broad all I saw was Gwen. For a moment she was Gwen, we were happy and back together again. I just want her with me, Tenson,'' he said as tears made their way down his face.

''Have you cheated on her before?'', I asked. He didn't answer me the last time, all he did was look down.

''No, she thought I did before, though. And last night I felt so bad, I told her that I would never cheat on her and look at what I did,'' he said.

''Do you think she'll forgive me?'', he asked, his eyes red from all his crying.

''Your her mate, I'm sure she will,'' I said, trying to make him feel better.

''Oh god,'' he mumbled.

''What if she doesn't forgive me. What if she takes the kids and I never see them again? What if she finds someone else? Oh god,'' he said as he paced back and forth. He started breathing real hard and his intakes of breath were short and sharp.

''Calm down, man,'' I said. He started breathing harder. I practiced breathing exercises with him and soon enough his breathing calmed down.

''I love her so much Tenson, I can't lose her,'' he cried.

''I'm such a fuck up!'' He yelled. His claws retracted and he started scratching at his skin, until just his meat showed.

''Man stop,'' I said. He stopped and watched as blood poured down his arm. He fell to the floor and sobbed. Damn he was messed up.

''Gorilla cooked,'' the lycan man said, walking by us. He handed us some on a stick. I bit into it. This shit as good! It tasted like spicy sausage.

''You like it?'', he asked. I nodded.

''We gave you best part. Gorilla dick,'' he said. Wait what?

''What?'', I said.

''You eat the gorilla dick. The dick of the gorilla. Best part,'' he said. I spit it out and and started throwing up.

''You ate dick!'', Loki laughed. At least he was feeling better.

''Shut up,'' I grumbled. He laughed even more. After that episode we went inside one of the tents and went to sleep.

In the morning we woke up and got started on the trail.

''Remember be quiet and if you hear anything run,'' Lycan man said. I was tired of calling him lycan man.

''What is your name?'', I asked.

''You must not know my name,'' he said.

......okay then. We continued walking and the lycan man was singing. Very terribly might I add.

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We were walking for a few hours now and all we saw was forest.
''Are we getting any closer?", I asked.

''We close, very close,'' Lycan man said.

''Sweet Jesus!'', I yelled.

''What?'' Loki asked.

''I think I got to take a shit,'' I said. It felt like my insides were bubbling. I ran over to a tree and let it loose. After I was done, I wiped my butt with tree leaves. Not the best, but it got the job done. I took my germ-x out my pocket and rubbed it into my hands. I knew it would come in handy.

Loki's P.O.V.

I fucked up. I know I did. My only hope was that Gwen would forgive me and that she would be safe. I couldn't wait to get her. Maybe things would turn back to normal and we would be able to be happy again. The night I cheated I tried to get in contact with her, but I was pushed out by something far more powerful. I hoped she was alright. Tenson came out, looking relieved.

''Okay we can continue,'' he said. We kept walking.

''So when are you going to tell her?'', Tenson asked.

''I don't know,'' I said. I really didn't want to tell her, but I didn't want any secrets between us.

''Well you make sure you tell her because if you don't then I will,'' Tenson said.

''Are you still in love with her?'', I asked.

''Honestly?'', he asked.

''Honestly.''

''Yes. I'm completely and irrevocably in love with Gwen,'' he said.
''I am happy that you are helping me to find her, but please do not use this thing against me to try and get with her,'' I said.

''I don't play fair, Loki,'' Tenson said as he continued walking.

''It doesn't matter, she loves me and only me,'' I said.

'' You don't sound so sure,'' Tenson said.

''Oh I am, Gwen and I are mates,'' I said.

''Even mates are rejected sometimes,'' Tenson said. I didn't reply he was right. My only hope was that Gwen had some forgiveness in her heart for me.

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Team Loki or Team Tenson?