Chapter 1: Different.
It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
All I can do is surrender
[Chorus]
Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something heavenly
Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow your will
or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is you want from me
I give everything I surrender...
To...
[Chorus]
Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to to release all my held back tears
Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly
Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly
Something heavenly
It's time to face up
Clean this old house
Time breathe in and let everything out
I can't say I love my life, I can't say everything is okay anymore because then I'd be lying. I only so many words can I describe this hole that continues to take presence in my heart, it's taken my idea of life and ripped it in half. As I look past these few years, I've never seen forever without the name Cullen attached at the end. These Past few days made me realize, that I don't know what I want anymore. Don't ask why I am acting like this, because I myself don't know who Bella Swan is anymore. Any danger is a figure in the past and for once being alone is different.
Sincerely, the girl you used to know.
As I stare at the computer screen my eyes linger on the last word. Different. I am different now.
For 4 years I have always said that my life is nothing without Edward, I always felt like I was standing on one leg and that Edward is my second half, my stable place to be, but can I stand on my two feet without him? I thought what I would want would never change, I would never change, I want to be able to stand next to Edward and feel like that is where I have always belonged.
Something shiny caught my attention and I looked down at my hand. Elizabeth Masen's ring lay silently on my third finger. The wedding is.. postponed until my grief cloud passes over and yet I still sit here as Bella Swan.
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Sincerely, The Girl You Used To Know
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