Sincerely, The Girl You Used To Know

Chapter 3

Chapter 3:

I am outside

And I've been waiting for the sun

And with my wide eyes

I've seen worlds that don't belong

My mouth is dry

With words I cannot verbalize

Tell me why we live like this

Keep me safe inside

Your arms like towers

Tower over me, yeah

'Cause we are broken

What must we do to restore

Our innocence?

And oh, the promise we adored

Give us life again

'Cause we just wanna be whole

Lock the doors

'Cause I'd like to capture this voice

It came to me tonight

So everyone will have a choice

And under red lights

I'll show myself it wasn't forged

We're at war, we live like this

Keep me safe inside

Your arms like towers

Tower over me

'Cause we are broken

What must we do to restore

Our innocence?

And oh, the promise we adored

Give us life again

'Cause we just wanna be whole

Tower over me

Tower over me

And I'll take the truth at any cost

'Cause we are broken

What must we do to restore

Our innocence

And oh, the promise we adored

Give us life again

'Cause we just wanna be whole

                When I was little, that’s all I was: little. I wasn’t a kid, just because I was one didn’t mean I acted like one. By the age of twelve I was capable of running and owning a house on my own. My mom always told me that she never wanted to grow up, so that’s exactly what she did. I was the mom and she was the child. When I was seventeen my mom changed, she found a man who made her happy and grow up all at the same time, she didn’t need me anymore, and so I left. The more I left the more she grew up, so eventually I moved away, and I was happy.

                I suck in a breath.  I wait for some kind of relief, the reminder that I am still alive and breathing, but nothing comes. If heaven is where I am, it was a painless process. Fear begins to rise in my chest, I decide to listen to music, and at least I have this here, with me.