In the Clouds

Ch.17

Finally. Jade and I were best friends again. I finally had someone to talk to about everything that was going on with Luke and I. Every girl needs a best friend to gush over her boyfriend about with, and without Jade and I being friends, I was missing that link.

"And then when we were getting in the car on the way back to his house after we each got jealous of other people, he gave me this whole speech about how special I am and ugh it was so cute," I described my day at the mall with Luke to Jade.

"Sounds like you guys had such a great time! You are very special, Lexi. Luke is also such a nice and sweet person," Jade commented.

"Yeah, he's really sweet. I'm very lucky to have him," I gushed.

"You have no idea how many girls wish to be in your place. I mean like, on twitter some girls spam him insanely just so he could follow them. You know, like I used to do with Ash?" Jade put in.

"Honestly to me it's quite crazy. He's just a regular guy in my eyes. I know he's special in so many amazing ways. But I just feel like those girls overreact," I admitted.

"Yeah I could see why you would say that." Jade agreed. Our conversation ended shortly after that. It was wrong, but I couldn't help but feel kind of good that so many girls wished to be in my place. This feeling was new to me. I was so used to everyone around me having everything I've ever wanted and me having nothing. But now I am on the other side. For some girls, Luke means their whole world, and they love him so much that they wish they could just see him. He's their 11:11 wish and their wildest dreams. But he's my boyfriend, and he means the world to me too.

But all of these crazy fangirls spark a reminder in my mind about Luke's fame. I continue to wonder how Luke and I's future will play out. We aren't an average couple, with him traveling all the time and having millions of fans, and me having to focus on school and college which was coming soon. I had a career to think about while Luke had a career to commit to. I don't know how Luke and I could ever stay together under such circumstances, but I do know one thing. I know that I have a strong belief in the saying that if someone loves something then they should let it go, and if it never comes back to them then it wasn't meant to be theirs. Faith works in crazy ways, and sometimes it doesn't work at all. Luke then walked into the room.

"Good morning Lexi, what's up?" he spoke.

"I'm alright, just finished talking to Jade," I informed.

"Oh cool, how is she?" Luke went on.

"She's good," there was a moment of awkward silence. "Luke how are we gonna stay together?"

"What?" Luke gave me a confused look.

"Our future, I mean, you're constantly traveling and I have school. I don't know how we could ever make this work. It's unrealistic."

"Well realistic is boring. If I wanted to be realistic I wouldn't be in this band. Life is about doing what you want. You know what else it's about? Living it day by day, step by step. Why should we worry about tomorrow's plans if we have a whole day ahead?" Luke chattered.

"I guess you're right, maybe I shouldn't be worried. It'll work itself out. But what if..."

"No, no 'what ifs,' just don't worry." Luke concluded. He walked over to me and gave me a hug. Luke was a shining diamond in my heart.

"I really, really love you," I whispered against his chest.

"I really, really, really, love you too," he breathed as he came in to kiss me.

...

The next day I woke up and had my usual morning chat with Jade. Luke was eating breakfast downstairs and facetiming with the rest of his band. We were all going to go to the studio later that morning. I looked out the window and I noticed the sky was dull today.