In the Clouds

Ch. 4

        "Luke Hemmings was in my car to go to a diner with you and you never thought to tell me?" Jade yelled to my face. This was the argument I was avoiding.

        "Look, I'm really sorry that I never told you, " I tried to apologize. I had already told her the whole story from him asking for a good place to eat all the way until I dropped him off at his hotel. She was mad, beyond mad even. Her eyes were a cocktail of envy, sadness, hate, and anger all together. It tasted terrible.

        "You know how crazy I am about them, you know how much I love them! Why wouldn't you tell me about this?' Her hands balled up into fists at her sides. I wish I knew the answer to her question, I really don't know why I hadn't told her until now. I guess I might've felt bad for what could've happened to him if she knew he was in her car. I bet she would have kidnapped him or something. "Unless you're lying," a small grin forms on her face.

        "Really? I never lie, I'm terrible at it, and so are you. Why would I even make this up?" I spoke, avoiding her last question.

        "Okay so if you aren't lying than Luke was actually in my car. He went to a diner with you! Luke was in my car!" she repeated, probably for herself that last time. I guess she had to make herself believe that Luke was actually in her car. I didn't see it as such a huge deal but here we go again with over-dramatic Jade.

        "Look, what happened already happened. I might've just been lucky or something. We can't let this make us fight. Its over, and I'll probably never see him again." I say finally, realizing how sad I became by knowing that his beautiful face would not be around me ever again.

        "I could care less! Don't tell me that crap! You are supposed to be my best friend, you should've told me!" she echoed. I didn't know what else to say, at a loss for words. Why didn't I tell her Luke went to The Cabin with me? She stormed out of my bedroom and I saw her car drive away from my window. Tears filled my eyes, this was out first real fight, in our years and years of being friends. I somehow knew it would end up being about 5sos, but never could have thought this. My phone buzzed in my pocket

U told me to text u if i needed anything, right? I was Luke, and I could almost see his charming smile.

Yea, I did. What going on? I answered kindly. What I said to him was kind of an open-gesture, but it was okay.

I need to get a break from everything, I can't take it anymore. His words surprised me.

If you wanna talk about it, we could... I had no idea what was happening. Why was he texting me about this?

It's just all the fame- Its overwhelming. It's like I can't be myself at all, ever. I always have to be someone else. Then last night, we had so much fun and you reminded me of my old friends and I. This band this has made me unable to talk to my old friends. I really, really wanted to reply saying that his band tore my friendship apart too. But no, a part of me won't let me do that.

I'm not famous, never have been and will probably never be but somehow I feel like I understand. It must be so hard to do everything you do and still be expected to have a smile on everyday.

Yea, it is. I'm glad people like u are willing to real friends. I've had tons of fake friends since this band this began, they only want attention.

I hate attention, everything about it. I don't even know how u cope with being in the spotlight so much.

I don't cope, I just go on. I could almost feel him winking. His words echoed in my head.

oh. That was all i could manage to say

Thanks for everything, i gotta go. Busy busy busy.

Anytime, cya! I wish I was actually going to see him, even just once again.

"Wait, he has your number?" Jade barked through the phone. I was wondering why I was even telling her about my small chat with Luke after our fight yesterday.

"Yea, I told him to let me know if he ever needed anything, " I replied. She suddenly seemed eager to talk to me. The truth was that I had no one else to talk to about the friendship that Luke and I were seeming to start.

        Jade has been on my case since then about Luke. Every little text, any thought, everything- for the next two days Jade seemed to only care about what Luke said to me. She used to get a little disappointed when I told her about our silly conversations when we talked about everything and nothing. Mostly, nothing. I didn't tell her everything, I mean they were our private conversations. Ours. That sounded so good in my mind, that something could belong to Luke and I. He was perfect in so many ways and not just his handsomeness. His personality was amazing in infinite ways. He was, dare I say, dreamy. No no no! I can't like him, we are only kind of friends. 

"Lexi," Jade interrupted my thoughts. We have been on the phone for about a minute of silence.

"Yea?

"I know this sounds terrible but I can't help but wish it was me with Luke at The Cabin."

"I guess you would feel that way, you are one of their biggest fans. But you need to understand that Luke and I are kind of like, friends, kind of..."

"Yea, I know," she sighed "I'll talk to you later. Bye." she hung before I got a chance to reply. Jade was jealous of me. That was the first time in history. I've always been jealous of her because of her beauty and here she was suddenly feeling envy towards me because of one hour at The Cabin and a few texts. An hour at The Cabin with Luke Hemmings and texts from Luke Hemmings. My mind corrected. It changed everything for her while to me he was just another guy. But hotter, so much hotter. What am I saying?

        I just felt weird. Jade is jealous of me and I find myself thinking of Luke a little. I don't think I like-like him. Not that I can anyway, Jade would hate me and I will probably never see him again. I don't know how I feel or how I'm supposed to feel about Luke. The thing is, I have had crushes but nothing really major. Just a few guys that I never even talked to. Will I see him again? Do I like-like him? Would Jade be mad at me if I did like him?

        Yes, yes, and yes- very.

I know this is a shorter chapter but bare with me here lol. I know it's not that great but the book is going to only get better here on. lol comment please btw, i want to hear from u guys