Falling for her. (Rilaya)

Chapter 4.

Rileys pov.
After a long day of school I walk home in tears. People stare at me as I walk but I ignore them. I walk into my apartment building and I start going up the stairs to go to my apartment.

I start rubbing my eyes and drying it so it doesn't look like I've been crying. I then open my door and walk inside, luckily my dad isn't home yet from work, guess he's writing reports and my mom doesn't come home till 4.

I walk into the bathroom and I run a shower. I close the door behind me and I undress and hop into the shower. I turn the water onto as hot as it can go and it burns my skin. I don't care I deserve it, I'm ugly and weak.

I look to my left and I spot my father shaving razor and I pick it up. I start sobbing, half from the pain of my skin being burnt and half me being depressed.

I took the blades out of the razor and I hold it to my wrist. I whisper "Ugly." I then slice my skin once. "Fat." I then slice again whispering abit louder. "Hated" I say louder by whispering anymore and I slice again. "Weak" I say even louder and me crying and I slice again and the bottom of my shower floor is turning red from my blood.

I then scream "And not loved." I then slice one more time before I put the blade back in its normal place and I curl up into a ball in the shower lightly sobbing as the shower burns me and my blood washing down into the drain. 

After 10 more minutes I turn the water off and I hope out and I see my wrist with marks on it. I then put a bandage over it so people don't suspect a thing. I look at myself and my skin was pink from being burnt. I then dry myself and get dressed wearing my  purple long sleeved pjs.

I then walk to my bed without bother getting anything to eat and I crawl into my bed and lightly sob myself to sleep.

The next day I walk to school as I prefer to walk then have the luxury of having a ride in a car to school. I enter the school gates and Maya walks up to me and she says "What you up to bitch?"

I don't even care that she hurts me anymore. It's become a normal thing. "Going to school." I respond and she drags me into the girl bathroom and does her daily swirly and kicks.
(Author)
Don't you guys worry, this is a rilaya book. Next chapter may change everything
Hope