The red apple that should have stayed green

Chapter 13 - Ready, set ... Troubles !

This morning she was up first and made the breakfast for both of them but had been interrupt in the middle by Jinki's Japanese friend who was back.
"What are you doing here ?! - The friend yelled.
-Shush you are going to wake up Jinki.
-I don't care ! What are you doing in our kitchen ! - She screamed louder with furious eyes.
-I .... I
-She lives with us now. Don't scream in the morning please. - Answered the just woke up Jinki.
- SHE WHAT ?"
That friend is really scary thoughts Kim while the teacher was explaining things in Japanese. The girl went out moving her arms over her head saying things in her language, furious.
"It's gonna be ok" said Jinki to comfort Kim. Then he looked at what she cooked and made the cutest smile. "Yummy" he said then kissed her as a thank you and hugged her as a good morning. They ate happily together and Kim complained about his English test. Jinki had an evil laughed and told her to do her best with a wink.

She left his home for school with a weird feeling. Like if it was the last happy time they'd have until a long time. But she decided to not think about that. She joined her duo and they arrived school safely but something was going wrong. Every student was looking at her, pointing at her, whispering as she was passing by. When suddenly Mi Young appeared in front of Kim. She took her arm and bring her in front of the information board. The girl made her a disgusting face and pointed to a giant pink poster.
Kim's eyes became wider her mouth couldn't be close anymore, her heart start beating faster, she felt the hot from her body going to her head, her ears became useless and her leg were like breakable woods. The poster was a display of Jinki and her. Picture of them lovey-dovey and with title "What a (lovely) horrible couple".
"You are worst that I imagine Park Kim. You are disgusting" - Mi Yong whispered next to her ear and then went away laughing.
How ? When ? Why ? What ? And more who ? Kim's head was empty. She wanted to ran away to hide. Then she realized that THIS could be worst for Jinki ! He was a teacher ! How will his colleagues, the Headteacher will react to that ? She rushed to the teacher room and opened slowly the door just to see Jinki being scold by all the teacher around and the Headteacher furiously talking with him. But what surprised Kim is that he was keeping his head straight and was looking in his eyes without trembling. He was so strong and it looked like he was even proud of himself. How could he be so wonderful ? Kim heart tighten looking at him, she felt so sad. His teacher career was screwed up and she was the reason why. But who can resist love. 

She was there hiding behing that door when a school boy pushed her in. "Go see your loooove baby ! I'm sure he is waiting for you to save him !" he said laughing. She was in the middle of the room and all the eyes that were on Jinki came on her. Their eyes where scary, she felt so small, like a mouse in the middle of a cat lady house. When suddenly her Korean teacher said "Did he hurt you ? Did he forced you to do thing ? He did right ? You weren't okay with that ! You can talk you know. Tell us everything. You wouldn't have come in for no reason right ?" She was unstoppable. "No, he didn't. i love him !" Said Kim with a little voice. The woman wasn't trusting her. She was still arguing that it was forced love that it was not possible other way etc. She was feeling even more attacked by all these insinuations that were all false but she didn't want to run away, she wanted to show Jinki that she can be as strong as him, to show him he didn't screwed up his career for an unworthy girl. "STOP ! - she screamed, a bit louder she thought it would be. She could have a so loud voice when she wanted - He didn't make anything wrong to me ! All the thing we did I wanted them ! He is the sweetest with me ! He wouldn't hurt me ! And stop saying I don't know him because this is ALSO FALSE ! I know him since childhood. He is my first love and my current love ! And this won't change ! I made my choice !" All the teachers were surprised. That so calm and discret girl they knew was so full of courage and rage. The thing is that she shyly ran away after saying all that. Her heart was beating so was that she could felt it on the tip of her fingers. She was hoping it was enough to save Jinki at least a little. 

She looked up to see where she ran and she was in a corner of the stairs case. She fell against the wall and let her back slide above until her bottom hit her thighs to be squat, getting her breathe back. It was without relying on Mi Young to be here for giving her hell. The evil girl pull her inside the toilets where her squad was. "I found her girls, let's play a game now. The game's title is "Let's make Park Kim day unforgettable". The group jammed Kim against the sinks and start ripping her uniform, her stocking, and untying her hair. Then Mi Young throw a whole bucket of water on her. "Look at you ! You are disgusting ! How will Lee Jinki teacher think looking at you ? Humm I wonder if he would still want you. - all the girls laughed - We ain't finished yet. We'll meet again this afternoon Kimmie" - she said while caressing her cheek and then they left. She was left behind, looking miserable, wet like an abandoned puppy under the rain. She needed to change clothes but she couldn't leave the WC in that state, it was too hard to handle. She stayed there trembling of cold for an hour thinking of a way out. Everything was restarting. Harassment, bullying, hate. It was here again. Her hell had come back. She waste a year by being closed at home, not being able to make a step outside by fear. But since she lived it once, she could be stronger. Well that's what she thought. The truth was different she couldn't. Her feet were like frozen, her whole body couldn't move anymore. Then tears fell of her eyes, running along her cheeks while closing her hands in a tight fits. She wanted to be strong, she wanted to fight it but her soul was stronger than her will, and it was frustrating her. She cried there alone in silence. Darkness surrounding her again, her heart closing again but before the door closed fully a hand teared her up outside. That same hand which save her before. That so shining, so bright hand. She was pulled outside walking a little bit fast until reaching the empty infirmary. That hand wipe out the water on her clothes and body, dried her hair with a warm towel. Then that hand caressed her cheeks with so much love, drying her tears still falling or cheeks, but those weren't frustrated tears anymore. It was sad tears. Because that comforting hand was Jinki's, because he came for her again, because she wanted to be more strong for him but failed, because she was loving him so much. His warm voice came against her ear "I'm sorry". "Thank you" became "Sorry" and it was all her fault. Because she waste her last year home she was still a high-school girl. Because if she wasn't it would be so much easier. She hugged him crying so hard saying "sorry, it's my fault" several time. Jinki didn't said anything but he hugged her so tightly, patting her head slowly with always the same rhythm and it was enough to comfort Kim. Her only true place of peace and happiness was here in his arms. She knew it and she was feeling so guilty. He brought her some sport clothes to change what was left of her uniform. Then they squat a bed and she slept there in his arms for the whole hour that followed. When the bell rang she woke up and they parted and she went in class. There her desk was not even woody color. It was scrawled all over her book inside it were ripped and tagged too. She sat anyway and waited for the teacher to come in. 

All the class was whispering behind her back and when she was facing them they would stop or go further from her. She was becoming the plague of the class. The person to run from but it's okay she was use to it, use to be alone. Where was her duo by the way ? Surely avoiding her to avoid troubles. Well it was better this way. Even if Hanna betrayed her she didn't want her to live the bully life and Eun Bi was too cute to be hurt. She hide her head in her arms waiting for the time to go faster. After some minutes the teacher came in, he ask everyone to sit and start calling their name to see if no one was missing. The teacher called them by order until Kim's name came. He looked longingly at the book in dead silence, then looked at her. "Park Kim, out. I don't want to do my lesson with someone like you inside." Kim looked at her hand on her lap and signed in despair. Why are they all like this ? I'm older than everyone here, why should I be treat like a baby ? This world is unfair. She got up and passed across all the classroom with all the eyes following her. She closed the door behind her and heard the teacher finishing his call. If she was treating that way how would Jinki be and yet he came to comfort her. What did she do for him ? She was so useless even her family disowned her. She wandered in the school like a body without soul and arrived on the rooftop. There she walked until the fence looking down. What if she killed her here ? Would anyone missed her ? Yes Jinki would. But if she is not here anymore Jinki won't have to suffer anymore right ? He could get his teacher image back, no ? Her family would be free from a burden and her little sister would get the attention she deserve in that house that was running only around Kim. So in fact everyone would be freed ... Maybe it was the solution. She climbed over the barrier and her feet were on the border of the rooftop. How school building was high. She closed her eyes and start sliding her feet on the cement of the bricks ...