The red apple that should have stayed green

Chapter 9 - No escape this time

She was there standing, looking at him calling for her from afar. When suddenly an idea went to her mind. She started to run, the faster she could, reached her home and took some clothes, a pajama, and her toothbrush, told her mom she will be out tonight and left. She ran again and stopped at the end of the street to check her home, HE was there ringing the door. She left her street and walked exhausted until she arrived to Hanna's home. She took her phone and called her saying she was in front of her house and needed help.

Hanna rushed out and welcomed our girl in her home. Kim greeted Hanna's parents and her 6 siblings. Hanna's family was so big and always fill with joy and noises. She brought her to her room and closed the door. Kim dropped her bag in a corner of the bedroom and felt on her knees. Hanna panicking a bit took Kim shoulders and made her sit on her bed. Kim was trembling so much. She was so scared. She couldn't hide for ever, she'll have to face what she's done and face HIM. But right now she was lost, she looked in her friend eyes and said :

"What to do ? Hanna what I'm gonna do ?

-Do what ? What happened ! Kim what happened ? I can't answer you if you don't explain ... - Hanna answered with a shaking voice.

-I ... I kissed him Han. I kissed him ! It was stronger than me, he was so close, so handsome and I lost it ... I kissed him. And so I ran away. - she said teary eyed - And now I'm lost so lost. I don't know what I should do. Han do you know ?

-Wait ... what ? You kissed who ? Kim I don't understand ! Why is kissing a boy you love so horrible ? Why are you in such a state ? Why do you look like you've done an horrible mistake ?

-I did. It was a mistake ! Han this is a forbidden love ! I shouldn't love him ... I shouldn't.

-Eh ? Wait the one you love is a teacher ? - Kim almost fell of the bed when Hanna asked - I see that's what I was suspecting. Listen, love is not something you control. I understand why you feel like this but you should be stronger and face it. Loving someone is beautiful and it shouldn't be different even if you're a student and he is a teacher. Face him Monday and be strong !"

Hanna knew it. Well Kim hasn't been really discreet about it. But if Han knew it so maybe all the class, all the school ! And if all the school know it, the teachers will too and then HE will be fired and and and ...

"STOP ! I swear that only me know about it ! Even Bi didn't noticed. No panic okay ? I'll be by your side supporting your love. -said Hanna

-Thank you Han."

Kim knew that Hanna will be the best to have support and advice. And somehow the best to stop her worries.

Hanna chased her little sister to the living room and gave the bed to Kim for the night. She rethought of HIM ringing her house's door. What did her mom told him ? What excuses will he has give to her mom ? She actually ran at the good moment. A minute later and she was caught. Her heart was still beating fast and her mind couldn't let go the moment her lips touched his. It was so hot, wet and sweet. Thinking about it made her wants more. That night she almost didn't sleep, but she took the decision to face HIM ... on Monday.

She spent her Sunday with Han. They went shopping, ate fried chicken, then ice cream. They went biking at the park and the day ended so fast. They went back to the house and Kim took her bag and left Hanna. She couldn't stay more. Poor little sister, and anyway she didn't have her uniform for tomorrow school. She was just hoping HE wasn't in her street waiting somewhere for her.

But he wasn't she reached home without incidents. She ate her dinner and went to her room. With all this she hasn't done her homework. She gave up on them for the fist time, she hadn't the head for. She just went to bed imagining a 100 scenarios of the next day and fell asleep.

November 10th

Morning ! She woke up hardly because of her short night but she needed to go to school she needed to have a talk with HIM. She washed her face, wore her uniform and came downstairs to eat breakfast. Her mom looked at her with a worried face. But Kim smiled to her "Morning" she said and ate.

She took the road, met the girls and walked school until she arrived to the gate. Her heart was racing so fast, her mind was flying away from her body. She even start trembling but Hanna took her hand and dragged her inside.

She was finally in class and she had to wait for the morning break to do something. But when HE came in, she lost all her courage. All the senarios had suddenly an unhappy end. What do to exactly she was lost, so lost ...

During lessons he was passing by and each time she was avoiding touch, avoiding look, avoiding HIM as much as possible. What was she capable to do otherwise and more in front of everyone. She was trying to find a solution. There needed to be one, at least one. When a little fold in scare paper landed on her desk.

"Sighs an other one - she thought - who is this from. Could be Eun Bi !" She unfolded it quickly and ... No it wasn't Bi ... It was Lee Jinki. He was asking her to meet at the gymnasium at morning break. As she had no other plan, no solution and didn't wanted to escape ... she wrote yes at the end of the message and let it on the corner of the desk. Lee Jinki took it back when he walked between the students.

Break time. Here she is taking the corridors to reach gymnasium. She faced the door, swallowed her saliva, took a deep breath and opened it. She walked it, and there, playing in the middle of the room, HE was there. He shot and won.
"YES ! - said Kim out loud.
- Oh you're there ! - said a sweaty shining Jinki
-Aah .. Yes."
He started walking to her. Her heart was screaming inside. He sat her on a bunch of the room and start talking.
"I wanted to meet you to talk about Saturday.
- Mmh.
- You know that it can't be possible ? You now that I cannot think, feel the same way ? You know that I am a grown man and you are only a little girl ?
- I know. - Kim answered
- So here is my question. Don't you know who I am ? Don't you recognize me ?
- I ... No, should I ? - she said panicking.
- Kim, Kim I'm sure you know it deep inside, and that is why your defence broke. Why you can't lie to you. Why I keep reading your thoughts. And what happened Saturday will not count until you find out. I want you to be fully yourself. Like you use to be."

He looked at her sadly and left.

"What ? Who ?" Does she know him ? No she doesn't how could she. But HE ... the way he talk to her seemed so familiar, and it was hurting. Her feeling will be ignored like that ? She will be left behind for a memory she doesn't have ? She started to punch her heart and then her head. "No, no, no !!!" She needed so much courage to come here but it was a waste ? "What to do ?" She felt on her knees empty of all power.