The Dalek's point of view.
It has been a day since The Doctor and the blonde girl that I believe The Doctor called her Rose had left me on this rock of a planet. I have never been so alone in my entire life. There was nothing to do here and everywhere I looked it reminded me of my brethren and the terrible things they have done. They could care less and I think that's the worst part of it all.
I kept wondering how The Doctor was going to find something I could help with. I was feared by everything that lives in this universe. Not to mention the whole I was a squishy squid creature there wasn't that many things I could do even if I had the chance too. I guess I had to just hope for the best.
One Month Later
Hope. A simple four letter word that meant everything to me. A few weeks ago that word meant my survival. It meant that I was still worth something in this universe. Now though I didn't know what that word meant. To me, to the word, to someone else. I no longer had a meaning in this universe and today I was finally going to put myself out of that misery. I knew it was better for everyone. I had the potential to kill and be destructive. This was the better solution.
The Doctor and Rose hadn't come back yet and I received that message very clearly. They couldn't help me, and that was okay. I had lived long enough I had done lots in my life, stuff that I didn't want to remember, and I was mostly ashamed about it, but I did live a long life. I had had hope, and I knew that it felt like to have a sort of friend. To be shown kindness. I had been hurt as well. I never experienced love but that wasn't my fault or anyone's. Daleks weren't even suppose to have emotions anyway so it didn't matter.
I hovered out into an open area. It wasn't like there was anything living here, but that didn't mean I wanted to add more damage to this quite beautiful planet. With a sigh I looked down at the ground. I wish I could do this without being in this stupid metal cramped suit but I was afraid that if I got out and was near the metal suit when it self destructed that it wouldn't kill me along with it. I didn't want to live. I was sick of always feeling this way. It was horrible.
The Doctor and the pretty blonde I knew wasn't going to come back, and that's okay. I don't need to bother anyone else. I didn't want to, I had already made a big enough mess. I knew I should just end it now, then be selfish just so I could live just a bit longer.
I initiated the self destruct mechanism. The count down started from twenty.
Twenty.....I wonder why they start it from twenty. That seems like such a long time before you die. It's for people to be able to back out. I won't though.
Eighteen......I bet ya the fleet is already to the next planet, killing innocent people once again. I'm so happy that I'm not with them anymore.
Sixteen.....I hope that Rose understands why I'm doing this. It's for the better anyway. It won't matter. The world will be a better place.
Fourteen.....The Doctor was probably right the whole time. I mean, well he is The Doctor, The Doctor's always right.
Twelve.....At least now I won't have to worry about hurting anyone, anymore. I won't have to be in this stupid metal box all the time.
Ten....finally ten seconds. I can't tell if I'm excited or scared, nervous. What was it like to die. Especially for something like me?
Eight....maybe I'll be punished for all the terrible things that I've done in my life. Or maybe it's just nothing. That everything ends.
Six...I swear this is the longest twenty freaking seconds of my life.
Four.....The things you think of right before you die right? Just random things, mostly questions.
Two....okay, I'm ready for this. It's going to be okay. I'll finally get what I've been- wait do you hear that? It's sounds like-
Zero.
*The story isn't over yet. Don't worry. It's nearly done though. I would say only one more chapter before the actual end. I hope you liked this chapter. I know it's been a while. I really have no excuse so...yeah. I hope you enjoyed this chatper though*
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Diary of a Dalek
Science FictionThis is a story about a dalek. This dalek has had something done to him and he doesn't know how he can proceed and become back to normal, or maybe he can't?
