Pleasuring The Hottest Jerk

Chapter 52

'Demoniese'

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This is my third day here in the hospital and I am freakingly bored. Ilang beses na rin akong binibisita ng buong BRs, actually dahil binabantayan nila ako. They even switched time to guard me here every night dahil baka tumakas na naman ako. I can't blame them, everytime na ma-oospital ako, hindi ko maiwasang tumakas. But right now I'm really on the edge of losing my sanity. Heck! I'm not ill, it was just my mind went black upon seeing Tricia's situation and that's it. Nothing more kaya bakit kailangan akong ikulong sa apat na sulok na 'to? Gusto ba nila akong baliwin?

Kahit araw-araw may bumibisita dito lalo na sina Venice at Nique, nakakabaliw pa rin. Lalo na kung si Claus ang magbabantay, mababaliw ka talaga, mapapanis pa ang laway mo dahil hindi ito magsasalita. Gaya nalang ngayon, he was just reading some articles na halata namang hindi niya pinagtutuunan ng pansin. Ilang oras na ba niyang binalibaliktad ang pages nito? He keeps on flipping the pages. Tsk.

"How many time are you planning to flip that article, Prince?" hindi na ako nakatiis na magtanong. Nahihilo na kasi ako sa kanya.

"What?" takang tanong nito. I rolled my eyes to him. "Just sleep, Clareese."

"Sleep again? I've been lying in this bed for days, ilabas niyo na ako dito. I'm fine already."

"No, you are not." simpleng tugon nito.

"Yes I am. My sanity is in the edge because I can't see anything aside from this four wall room. You know I hate hospitals."

"You are going to stay are. That's final." he flipped the page again. "This is better so that no assholes can get near you." I pressed my lips. I know what he meant. Ilang beses ko na bang naririnig ang sigaw ni Zylex sa labas ng pinto? I can't count anymore. Pero lagi naman itong nabibigo dahil bantay-sarado ang kwarto ko. Black Royalties are making sure to avoid me with that man.

I understand them well. They are just protecting me from harm, and they all knew that the dangerous harm that can hurt me is only him. Minsan naiisip ko, pabigat lang ako sa kanila. I'm useless when my emotions will lurk in my soul.

Zylex is very persistent to talk to me, but I also refused to. We already had cleared everything. Nagulat ako noong nalaman ko ang nangyari sa kanya. He was fucking drugged ng sinong poncio pilato. Galit ako sa gumawa sa kanya nun but my madness won't do good. In my situation right now I can't do good.

I stared at the garden outside my room. I just stared there and memories starting to popped out. The nightmare that haunts me everyday. The day I lost my own child. I was totally wrecked after I found out that I lost my baby. Ang pinakamasakit noon, ay hindi ko alam na nasa sinapupunan ko na pala ang anak ko, pero naging pabaya ako. I was miserable after that but the guys never leave my side. They supported and protected me, kaya unti unting bumabalik ang dating ako.

"Stop thinking things, Clareese. That won't do you any good." Claus suddenly said. I sadly smiled to him.

"Claus, am I a burden to all of you?"

"Definitely not. We choose this. We wanted to protect you at all cost kaya hindi ka pabigat samin."

"But that's what I felt..." malungkot ko siyang tiningnan. "Tama ka naman eh, naging dependent na ako sa inyo. I am so selfish, iniisip ko lang ang sarili ko at nakalimutan kong pagod na kayo sa kakaintindi sakin. I am sorry, sorry kung mahina ako."

Agad siyang lumapit sakin at marahang niyakap ako. "I'm sorry if I said those words. I was panicking that time because you are mentally unstable. But princess, we are not tired of you and you are not a burden at all. Rely on us all you want but never disregard your strength too. You are strong, sa lahat ng nangyari sa'yo, nakayanan mong bumangon. Get those pieces again and come back to us. We are just here for you, always waiting."