"let go"
"give in"
they whisper in my ear.
sometimes i listen.
they get angry when i dont.
who are they? i dont know.
but they are the ones that make me draw the blood from my arm.
they are the ones that make me second guess myself.
they are always there.
constantly murmuring
"worthless"
"good for nothing"
i try to hush them
but they just persist.
they get louder
and louder
and louder.
sometimes they scream at me.
they arent pleased until i leak ruby red.
"good girl" they tell me
"you know you like it".
"again again" they encourage me.
i cant get them to stop
because i dont know where they come from.
you cant quiet your mind.
