Filming Without You

PROLOGUE

Sydney, July, 2014

Macarena's POV

It's been five months since I last saw Jamie Dornan. His name still sends a thrill through me. Every single day away from Jamie has etched a scar where my heart used to be. Time, however hasn't brought us closer, the opposite is true. My engagement ring is no longer on the third finger on my left hand. Anyone seeing my Facebook and Twitter account photo updates, wouldn't know I wear the engagement ring on a necklace close to where my heart used to be, before Jamie stole it. Looking back, our road to separation wasn't as dramatic as one would think... It was a beautiful day in Lima, Peru. Jamie and I were enjoying our family vacation with our parents, everything was going smoothly, Jim and Samina were enjoying my parents' companionship and Jamie and I were planning our future together when Jamie received a phone call from Santiago, my brother, who was in Vancouver with Millie, the reason of his call was to let us know that Millie was in labour. Jamie freaked out, he started pacing the room frantically. I had to take control of the situation as the news sunk in. At short notice, I was able to get the last seat on the next flight to Vancouver. Jamie left hours later and I promised to join him along with Jim and Samina. I could not miss the birth of his first child. Jamie who had a phobia of flying bravely faced his monsters and boarded the plane alone. That night Millie gave birth to a beautiful Dulcie. My brother was there when Dulcie was born but Jamie was on the plane. Jamie blamed himself for not being there for the birth of his daughter. The birth of a child is one of those life changing moments that can never be recaptured. The doctors had to perform a C-section on Millie because Dulcie wasn't correctly positioned for a natural birth.Dulcie was a premature baby. She contracted pneumonia during the birth and needed to stay in the Neonatal ICU for six days before mother and baby were discharged to go home. Soon after Jamie boarded the plane for Vancouver, I got a phone call from the production of my new film, saying they needed me in Chicago as soon as possible. Here is where I messed up big time. I flew to Chicago instead of joining Jamie in Vancouver. Jamie rightly felt let down. I wasn't there for him when he needed me, his fiancée, the most. I should have asked the production for an extra week saying that I had a family emergency, but I did not. I have regretted this decision almost every day since then.After seeing Millie and Dulcie were well enough to travel home to Sydney, where she is still being raised by Millie and Santiago, Jamie went back to work. He flew directly to Cape Town without stopping in Chicago to see me.Millie and Santiago often send me pictures and cute videos of Dulcie the most beautiful golden haired cherub. She's so beautiful, it aches to see how much like her daddy she is. News and pictures of Dulcie amplifies my wish to start a family with Jamie. The feeling is powerful enough to put a warm golden glow in my rib cage, right where my heart used to be. The glow in my rib cage is brighter than the midday Peruvian sun and the yellow diamond in my engagement ring. Of course I tried to apologize for not being with Jamie in Vancouver, I called and called, but only got a text message saying that he needed time. It broke my heart not to get the chance to listen to his deep voice, his sexy Irish accent. I even got vacation time to visit Jamie in Cape Town but my career was only getting bigger and bigger. But more scripts were sent my way every other day, the best names in the designing world would send personal invitations for me to be their cover girl. These appointments took up time I should have spent with Jamie.Successful men offered me wealth and more, I turned them down, of course. There is only one man for me, and that man is Jamie Dornan. I spent most of my time missing Jamie. It was therefore a happy coincidence that Dani moved in with me in Chicago and Matt joined Jamie in Cape Town. I know about Jamie's whereabouts through Dani because that's all I ask her about. I suspect Jamie knows about what I am up to through Matt. Did I mention that Dani and Matt started dating, the night of our engagement?Getting engaged to Jamie Dornan was the most magical day of my life. It hurts to think of Jamie somewhere in the world cut off emotionally and physically from me. But I digress, Jamie and I may no longer be together but Dani & Matt are. Our love played cupid to two friends...and their relationship is getting stronger despite the distance that separates us. If only that was Jamie and I.Today is a special day in my family and I'm at a hotel in Sydney with Jenny and Mario, we're getting ready for the event. It still amazes me how I, Macarena Santana, a simple girl from San Bartolo, Lima, Peru, is best friends with the super famous Jennifer Lopez and one of the best photographers in the world, Mario Testino. I owe my sanity to these two. They've supported me and have been there for me since my first real heart break. It was the one and only Cauã Raymond, the Brazilian Super Star who is now dating my other best friend Eloise Mumford, my best friend in the movie Fifty Shades of Grey. My entire family will be attending the special event today, even Jamie's best friends were invited, I will be seeing the entire group: Jack Savoretti and wife Jemma Powell, Eddie Redmayne and his wife Hannah, Andrew Garfield and his girlfriend Emma Stone, the last time I saw Jamie's 'gang' was in Ireland, those were great times, now they're here to share a special day with Santi and Millie. My stomach is full of butterflies. Deep inside I'm hoping and praying that Jamie shows up. I'm desperate to see him, to see if he still feels something for me, we haven't officially broken up...yet.

*** I would like to thank my dear friend AthenaShakespeare for helping me write and for editing this Prologue more than once! You've become my rock!! Gracias as always!!! I hope you guys liked it and vote and comment your thoughts. I appreciate each one of you! I've added a video of Lima, Macarena's hometown so you guys can know the best of my city. Enjoy and Visit Peru! Xoxo-Z***