A smile can hide my pain,
pain that slashes across my heart
sometimes it's so painful I can't breathe,
yes there is air in my lungs.
The days I live are not mine
living double lives ain't right
the person I used to be I can't find.
The pictures I see are no more light,
they're gone,
a reminder of the life I long.
All I see is black and white
there is no more colour in my life
waves of sorrow that sweel my heart,
plains of betrayal that crash my thoughts
like darts on a board,
As I start to recall
it dawns on me on the life I had before
how I use to soar,
how I miss it, but I have to live without it
how I regret what I've done
but life goes on...
Oh how I long for the past
to be my present and future once again
good or bad, right or wrong
my wishes change nothing
what I'm told is that it happend for the good
but I always seem in a crappy mood
I know its bad, definatly sad ..
Before I recieved I wanted,
never what I needed
now, what I need is all I recieve
and what I want has disappeared
out of sight...
I wish I could borrow somebody's life
just for a short while
So I can feel,
realy feel
the life I was given
and what I was expected to be.
The light I long for, the song I call for..
But I can't borrow anyone else's life
so the cold still chills my soul
and the world continue's to better my hope
but it helps to know
I'm not alone
someone was here once, not long ago
and gone the next..
Everyone changes, life changes
and you knw what?
nothing ever stays the same...
