Regrets

Chapter 14: I Need A Break,

EMILY'S POV
Everything felt so, fast. It was really a lot to take in. Serena's my best friend and all, but, wow. To be honest, I think things would be easier if Serena was dead. It scares me to say that, and even saying it in my head gives me shivers. It feels as if Serena did hear me. But I know she didn't. She's just, standing there, waiting for a question. I get that really seems odd I'm not saying anything, but what is there to say? Serena finally broke the silence and said, "Em?". Man, a month ago this would seem like paradise, but now, I don't know. I really feel awkward. I grabbed my purse and keys and told Blake, "Let's go." But he just looked at me with his sweet innocent eyes. He was on the verge of tears, you could tell. "I don't, I don't want to go. You shouldn't either." I couldn't believe him! I brought him here to see his stupid girlfriend who can't choose if she loves him? God I wish he could see it, she's not the right girl for him! Why does he have to go running for her when he has someone so much better always by his side! He's so ungrateful. "Fine! Stay with her." I could tell that wasn't the reaction they were expecting. Serena then came out and said, "Em! What has gotten into you!"
She really pulled that string now! I couldn't help myself and responded. "What has gotten into me? Me! God Serena you are such an attention hog! I-! I, I need a break." She looked as if she were about to cry, and I really didn't care. "F- F- Fr, from what?" She said with tears. "From, you! All this drama, all your attention, all of this. I don't want it anymore! Your not- Your not worth it!", I said with a anger. Serena fell to her knees and began sobbing. Blake came to her side and comforting her, how pathetic. He could do better. I had my purse and keys ready to leave but right when I was about to leave Serena's room someone grabbed my purse and followed me out. It was Kat, of course. "What the hell happened back there! First you come to make sure she's alright, next thing you know she's crying because of what you said!" She was damn angry, I should know. I've never seen her this angry, especially with me. "I'm tired of her shit," I told her with Kat. "God Emilia-"
"Don't call me that!" I snapped at her. I began to storm down the stairs, trying to get to the door. But as I was walking I could hear Kat saying, "Why? You used to be best friends. An hour ago you were worried sick about her, now you'd give anything to see her dead. Now that's pathetic. I know why. It's a dumb reason really." I stopped right before I got to the door. She was upstairs. I told her from down below and told her, "As if you would know." She told me, "It's Blake. You love him. I can tell. But Serena does to. And I'm sorry for that. I can't control my sisters feeling and I can't control yours either. Bu don't let a guy be the reason you guys are fighting. I know, it's hard to see your crush fall in love with your best friend and her fall in love back. But, don't let this be the reason why your fighting." I can't believe it, she knows! "How would you know? What makes you think that!" I didn't tell her that I loved him, but I didn't tell her that I don't either. "Oh Emily. I've known you since you were three. I've known you long enough to tell when your in love. I see the way you look at him, you don't look at him the same way you look at other guys. I'm so sorry you've had to keep that secret for so long. But you need to tell Serena, otherwise, your friendship is never go to be put back together." I'm not even mad, just shocked she knows this. But I couldn't let her know that. I sneered at her, "Who are you to know what's good for me, or how I feel!" She responded with, "You never denied it." Ugh! I stormed out and shut the door as hard as I possibly could. Great, it was raining. It always rains so much during winter, I actually really love it. But today was not the greatest day. I ran to my car and drove home. By the time I did get home it was down pouring. I got to the door, but obviously since today is just against me I left my keys in the car. I rang the doorbell and of coarse Maddie answered. She's always watching TV. "Oh Em!" She told me and gave me a big hug. I guess I didn't realize I was crying the whole car ride. And if that wasn't enough the rain definitely did the trick. My mascara was running, my hair was soaked, I'm a train wreck. I'm just really worried what Kat's going to tell them. Maddie sat me down and made me a pumpkin spice. She was watching Keeping Up With The Kardashians, and she honestly would. She told me, "Now, tell me everything that happened at that no good, slut Serena's house." Well she's really in for a story..