Crossbreed - Tronnor AU

Chapter Ten

T R O Y E

Waking up on a sofa wasn't as bad as I thought. I mean, I had Connor laying next to me, holding me tightly against his chest. I tried to quietly get away from his grip, but it was quite difficult, considering that I was tired as well.

"Having problems there?" Kayla appeared from the other room, folding her clothes and placing them inside her bag. She had a smile on her face, and it soon became a giggle when she noticed my struggle.
"Not funny." I cringed at my morning voice. Why couldn't it be sexy like all the books I've read? I tickled Connor's stomach a bit, making him squirm.
"Wake up please, I'm dying over here." I whispered and his eyes snapped open, looking at his surroundings, trying to figure out where he was. When he saw me under him, he quickly got up, losing balance and hitting the floor.

"Sorry." He blushes deeply and I giggled at his state. He's so damn cu- Troye. You have a girlfriend. You do not like boys. This little crush is soon going to disappear, and you'll go back to your normal life. I messed up his hair, making it stick up more than it already was.

All of this is just wrong. Connor is just a friend, a really attractive one, who just happens to be traveling across the country with me. And he gave me his amulet. He also complimented my eyes and god I've never blushed so much in my life. And I can't stop thinking about our almost kiss. I can still feel his breath hitting my face and his green eyes staring at me. I wish I could go back in time and just put our lips together. I wanted to feel him and taste him. I'm a lost cause aren't I?

Kayla was already outside, leaving me and Connor alone in the room. It didn't really help me that I was still thinking about how his body would feel, how he would reach out and-

"You ready?" Connor glanced at me, stopping my dirty thoughts instantly. Thank god, otherwise I'd have some problems with my jeans.
"Y-Yeah." My cheeks were red, I could feel it, and apparently Connor noticed it too.
"Are you okay? You look kinda red." He came closer to me and my heart skipped a beat. When he touched my forehead, the place started burning. It was gentle and caring and I wanted to take his hand and hold it.

What am I thinking?! I'm going crazy, I need help, but I have no one. I have Kayla, but I don't think she's going to help me. It's just me and my thoughts, and I'm scared. Scared I'll make the wrong move, scared I'll push Connor and Kayla away, scared to be alone.

Maybe Connor could read minds, maybe he just saw my face, but I felt his arms wrapping around my torso and his fingers laying on my hair. He smelled like coffee and mint, and his body was strong, holding mine tightly, like I was falling apart and he was there to hold me. My thin fingers held his back and my head rested on his shoulder. I felt like crying. Crying because I didn't want to feel this way, I didn't want to feel so complete when I'm with him.

Connor let go of me and gently held my chin. I looked into his eyes and the feeling of deja-vu took over my body. My vivid dreams, the drawing that was still hanging on my wall. Was my dream really trying to tell me something? Was it trying to tell me that Connor would always be there, even on my worst nightmares? No, it couldn't be it, it was just a dream. Dreams are only your imagination and nothing more, but I still had this feeling inside of me that I couldn't put my finger on. He smiled weakly at me, reassuring everything would be fine from now on. What was this boy doing to me? Why was he so careful around me, so gentle?

He was looking deeply into my eyes, looking for something. Maybe he found it, maybe he didn't, but I felt something I couldn't quite explain. It was something I've never felt in my whole life.

He was kissing me.

Our lips were connected perfectly, his gentle lips slightly touching mine. My head was spinning and I couldn't think straight. What was happening? I had a girlfriend! I didn't care at that moment, I just kissed him back. I moved my lips against his like there was no tomorrow, and my hands gripped his back almost as if he was going to let go of me any second.

He broke the kiss to look me in the eyes. I looked at his and they were so full of information. I saw love and regret, sadness and fear. I saw his family sitting on a table, laughing at a joke someone told. I saw his mother yelling at his father. Was that what really went through his mind it was it my imagination?

He smiled weakly at me and walked away. I just stood there, speechless. He kissed me. He actually kissed me. And I liked it.

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A/N:

This was so short I'm so so so so sorry. I've been dealing with a lot rn but school is almost over and then I'll write more.

Again, I'm so so sorry.
I mean they kissed so... Guess that makes up for it? I don't know.

ALSO BLUE NEIGHBORHOOD WTF TORYE AND HE WAS ON JIMMY FALLON AND KM SK TIGSNFJLIDDHFFIXM