Nessie's Life

Chapter 3: Crash

The week flew by pretty fast. It was already Thursday, just one more day left with baby Emmet.

Before Jake and I went to bed, we were watching TV at my house, behind the main house where everyone else was avoiding the annoying cries of the doll. I couldn't blame them, it got old really fast. We were watching Pride and Prejudice, my favorite movie. "Are you going to miss him?" I asked. He was holding baby Emmet.

"Not really," he laughed, "At least we don't have to do this for real."

"Why not? Don't you ever want to fall in love and have a family of your own someday?"

For a quick second he had a weird look on his face, then quickly answered when I noticed. "Nah."

"But what about when you get tired of living this life?"

"What do you mean?"

"Well, you can actually go off and live your life and I'll..." it hit me just then, "always be stuck like this." A tear fell from my eyes. Jake was instantaneously by my side.

"Ness, what's wrong?" He already had his arm around my shoulder. He already had his arm around my shoulder.

"I'm gonna be stuck like this aren't I?" It was rhetorical. "I"m doomed to a never ending life of high school, and never being able to make friends because they'll all eventually die. I can't get married or have kids because I'm a monster." I was crying really hard now. "Jacob, why don't you leave? You can have a life. You're not like the rest of us."

"I can't leave. Even if I wanted to," he replied somberly.

"Why not?" Before he could answer my mom and dad came through the door. I guess they heard me crying. 

"What's going on?" My dad asked kneeling down in front of me. 

"She's just realized what her life is destined to be," Jacob answered.

"You didn't tell her anything did you?" My mom asked with a worried tone.

"No." Jacob said coldly giving her a look.

"Tell me what?" I asked

"Nothing." He replied brushing it off. 

"Jacob, maybe you should go," my dad suggested.

"You going to be ok, Ness?" Jacob asked me. I shoot my head no. He looked pleadingly to my dad asking if he could stay.When my dad didn't give him an approving look; he gave me a hug then got up and walked out of the room. My mom sat down next to me on the couch, and my dad continued to kneel in front of me. 

"Renesmee, I know you are upset about your life right now. We have all come to this realization at one point in our lives, and we all handled it differently." I felt my tears come back as my dad continued to talk. "What is upsetting you the most?" I didn't answer.

"Renesmee, we can't help you if you don't talk to us," my mom said.

"She's upset with us," my dad said.

"Us?" she asked questioningly.

"Stop getting in my head." I cried more. "It's not fair! You guys got your happily eer after, and now I'm stuck with this life." Baby Emmet started to cry. I got yp and took the doll in my arms and gave it its bottle. "I'm never going to have kids of my own, or grow up, fall in love, and leave you guys. Why can't I just be normal?" They both just held me while I cried.

I went to my room and laid down. I cried on and off, I guess Jake took baby Emmet because I didn't hear him cry.

At three in the morning, my Aunt Rosalie came into my room. I could hear the others whispering in my house.