Love and war

Stay with me

A
Maya p.o.v flashback to 8th in Texas

He kept asked questions, but I want to do shut up I want to sit here and watch the fire. I forget about all this because really I don't know what I feel and I want to feel it riley feels, he makes her happy, can you make me happy to? " What's going on?" He asked how to answer I wish I can be like Riley and ease all his worrier. " I don't know" I let a frustrated sigh because Honest I wish I knew. " i'm a brother now" I can hear in his voice was hurt, confused frustrated with the beautiful brunette left here to figure out whatever he had felt for me. " apparently." I said as look at the fire,thinking back to you just a few minutes ago and another time he fight for Riley, forgot about me. " you like me now? " shot another the question, I swallow hard, do I like him? god my feelings are confused right now, no going back just yet because I just broke my best friend I might as well continue to dig the dagger farther, whom I kidding lie lying to your whole heart content you can't hurt Riley she loves him you know she does. " no " i said simply but my heart twisted and turned violently like I was having emotional turmoil. " what do you want to watch me at the rodeo." And there was another question they didn't have the answer to what to because I cared about him and care about him it was Ranger Rick the guy, I been secretly pining after never meant no they'll make me a terrible friend. " I didn't want you to win because get all big headed" I said sarcastically my heart scream out, 'because I love you' I said I continue to look at the fire. "I don't think that's it.?" he said as if he was fishing for something else, so I did what I did best, I Mock the eagle sword above everyone because he had a princess and make him feel like he was on cloud nine. "I don't think that's it." I said the mocking tone I can see the hurt his eyes he hated that but only way I can talk him without my feelings pouring out. "I don't talk like that, I just don't! Why do you see me like that?" He hissed As He trying to keep his composure did not want to be here I can see in his eyes he want to be wherever she was but she's going to be far away from The trouble that she caused. " Of course I don't see you like that! Can we just .. can we just look at this fire, please." I Sigh I want to have this conversation anymore, It kill me to hurt my best friend, it kill me to know that I killed her inside. "It's been bad enough that I've been keeping this secret from Riley all this time. " I said continue to look at the fire but his eyes traveling back to me. "What secret?" He asked me, what do I say I thought to myself, because was it really secret was an obvious picked upon it? Riley knew better than anyone maybe she knew the whole time just afraid to say it come out and say it that she as a brother she didn't she want to make me happy. " You guys are so much alike. I thought you were just like brother and sister too" I sigh oh that wasn't true, I knew they were just so perfect for each other, i know they never were brothers and sisters I know Lucas fight for her you love her no matter what, but I just wish it was true. " why?" You can hear his voice he was scared that it was true I want to ease his pain from you was in love with her but I want him all to myself so maybe I was selfish, but riley was never selfish it was just me." You're at your best when you're just talking to each other. Looking out for each other. That's what I believed, but I kept it a secret. And now the secret's out, so I don't have to carry it around with me anymore. I just don't wanna have any more secrets from her." I was on the verge of crying, I was keeping secrets is going to tear up inside for my happiness, he was confused I was confused riley was confused everyone was confused here, but without riley were all falling apart and he was fishing for something to hold onto as broken as he was I can see in his eyes he just wanted something to ease the pain. " So you don't make fun of me because you like me?" His questionnaire go to my head but you're feeling I didn't know why am a fun of him probably because it seemed easier that way then deal with my feelings, and just pretend that he was my enemy, this is just taking the most important thing late for me and maybe were both in love with the pretty brunette." I'm gonna just sit here and watch the fire." I just want everything to be silent for a second so I can forget about all these feelings then never knew i Buried deep that I could even find myself. "Maya, why do you make fun of me?" The Question just kept coming and I was ready for them. " I'm just gonna watch this fire." I said as I stare blankly out of space blankly at everything the beautiful stars tonight and and if this was a romantic comedy we would making out right now. " Maya, why do you make fun of me?" He Asked again, he continued to push the subject. "Because you're easy to make fun of!" There I went and I couldn't stop myself. " OK then stop" he asked me did I want to stop but I couldn't because then I'm in a have to feel something I don't want to feel anything. "Because you're a huckleberry. Because you're a Ranger Rick." The word kept spilling out, couldn't help but to keep talking" could you stop that" he asked again but I want him to shut up the whole time but he didn't so here it comes. " Look, if I had feelings for you, don't you think I'd just come right out and say it? Well, I don't, so what I do say is "har-harr" I started to say that was stopped his hands cup my cheeks, and I was scared to move, his eyes were staring at me but his mind was somewhere else and I knew exactly where was it was on my best friend is he moves his hands with my face and then we came back to reality the bitter sweet reality. " Why did you do that?" I whisper afraid of might hear as look into his eyes hoping they said because you love me. "I don't know, I just wanted you to stop! Please don't tell my sister." He panicked me know if you took the next step if you kiss me there's no chance you could never be with Riley so I step back. " You couldn't think of another way to stop me?" I asked and he stood there for a second but we're both scared to say anything but for different reasons. "You couldn't think of another way to stop me?" He finally said I want to believe there is 1000 ways to stop me but wasn't that I was completely lost my feelings and they were coming out any did what you thought was best to stop me. "Not at the time, no! I'm sorry?" He said and I want to be mad I want to scream and yell I want to be frustrated and angry with him but all I did was looking to lose eyes and realize how much I was in love with him and we never be. " You don't have to be sorry, Huckleberry. Of course I like you. You're a good guy. If you got hurt, I don't know what I would have done." I sigh, as I stand there and realize there wasn't ever going to be happily ever after for me.

End flashback
Maya p.o.v
He's Laying close but he feel so distant i kiss his lips as a tremble in fear of losing everything. I can see It in his eyes his wishing I was someone else but I was wishing that I was his only so I guess were both wishing thing that never happen. He finger are mines, his hands are cold just the way his heart as he bag for me to be Riley and i beg for him to want me back. " you're beautiful" he whispers and I find myself wondering if he really thinking of me as a kiss down my neck. There was a need there, a I need to feel another warm body, tangled in the sheets his bare chest against mine's. He feel like home but just a memory of something that used to be perfect distorted but beautiful. And his touch send shivers down my body. I beg for this last forever, not the sex but the feeling behind. I kept wondering what was going on the back of his head tear rolled down his cheek and he went deeper, I let little small moan, my fingernails down his back, deeper leaving tiny scratches. This is like a wildfire of emotions and only for Summerrain to put it out again when this over, he'll go back to her. She's my best friend but then again she doesn't need him like I do. When it was finally over and he tried to escape as fast as he could but is something I never thought I would, I grab his hand. " stay " I shout out as Echo through room, what the hell was I doing. " stay would you stay with me because I know that in the morning you're going to be gone but right now I just want you to hold me." The words were rushed but yet blood rushing to my body vine filled with adrenaline, He stood there just looking into my blues eyes, as bit my lip.i'm just waiting for him to say no and put me out of my misery, " what more can hurt she's not running back anytime soon at least not tonight can I just have you for one night, can we pretend that I was yours and you was mine. " I close my eyes and took a deep breath give him a chance to run for the hills but as I felt his hand cross my cheek just before his lips hit mines. I had just won the war that was going on in my head as he pulled me closer and I'm top of the lap wrap arm around his neck. I won the war that was going on my head but lost the battle is he kissed my neck and I realize this was in love now this is deep desire and I was captured and whatever this was the war was just beginning.
A/n I know I wrote this differently last time but I wanted to change something and put emotion into it but I'm not good emotions because I'm not a very emotional person so yeah