On Call

Chapter 21

Alex

I walked into the house, there is this tense atmosphere drifting around. Daniel and Thomas resumed with the party after we left the hospital. Aaron and I haven't talked since I said that I wasn't happy about the baby.

I can't be a mother, this baby was unplanned and unexpected to me, I'm not the kind of person that has all my shit together and even knows anything about babies.

I haven't felt sick or anything so hearing I am pregnant is a huge surprise. Things are just so rushed for me, today we got engaged and today I found out I am pregnant. To any normal girl it would be the best day of her life.

I felt wrecked, I have too many issues I had to sort out, too many emotional scars and now I'm pregnant.

"Why aren't you happy?" Aaron asked breaking the silence that is pressing down on us.

"I can't be a mother" What else would I say? That my life is a wreck right now, that I stress so much my heart couldn't beat properly, that we are slowly falling apart and an engagement wasn't going to save us.

"It doesn't answer my question!"He yelled furiously, is he seriously mad that I wasn't happy? I think he was madder because he didn't know I didn't want any children.

"This couldn't come at a worse time, things are just starting look up , a baby changes everything." I didn't get angry. I sounded like such a bad person, the truth is that when you have a baby you are responsible for him/her , how can I be a mother if I can't even clean up the mess that was my life right now.

Aaron was trying to ignore the cracks that were starting to show.

"You could've told me you didn't want any children! I thought no secrets." I started to get angry now, no secrets? It was obvious after the whole Caroline ordeal.

"No secrets? Says the guy who thought he slept with his ex and then kept it a secret from me!"I know that is in the past but it just blurted out of me.

His blue eyes were blazing with anger. The cracks were just getting bigger and bigger by the minute. Love isn't all that a relationship is based on, trust- after what happened I couldn't trust him .

"I knew I shouldn't have fucking talked to you that night at the hospital, your sweet innocent girl façade was just a bluff. But you were a tempting screw, I wish I never met you." He walked out the door and slammed it shut. Those words hurt deeply, how were we supposed to raise a baby when things like this happen.

Like he said, I was a tempting screw. Someone he could sleep with and lure when he was still married and a good screw afterwards.

I placed my hand on my stomach, even if I wasn't ready to be a mother I couldn't bear the thought of losing a baby. I could make it work, without Aaron. I could feel my anger still simmer in my veins but this was bound to happen.

We don't belong together, we don't fit. I knew things would all go down the drain eventually. I was trying to be positive because things were really looking good for us.

I patted my stomach looking down , 5 weeks and I haven't puked my lungs out. I must be a lucky one.

-4 months later-

Aaron has been trying to call me and knocked down my door after I moved back to my apartment. He has been apologizing and sending flowers and cards. He hasn't seen me in 4 months. I had a very visible baby bump now at 5 months.

I told my parents after the sonar at 3 months. My mom wasn't happy and by some miracle my father was, he knew Aaron and I were no more but he also said that I should include Aaron.He seemed to look forward to being a grandfather , he knew I was the only hope because Daniel is clearly not going to be making babies soon.