Tyler's pov
It's me again.
You thought I was gone, didn't you?
I thought I was finally home.
But I failed, again.
The building was so tall.
How did I not die?
I'm going to shoot myself today.
So, here's my last words, before I attempt, and succeed, to end my life, and finally make it home.
(A/N I'm sorry I'm putting you through this again)
Dear Josh,
I'm going to miss you.
No. I miss you.
But I won't be able to feel that because I will be dead.
I'm going to end it again.
Why did you pull me off of the edge?
How did you find me?
Did I just pass out when you pulled me back?
I thought I fell, and for once, I was happy.
No.
Overjoyed.
I was finally going to be set free but you had to deprive me of my dreams.
I'm just a flightless bird.
I was going to fall off of the building, not fly.
Can't you see?
I wanted to die.
I wanted to be put in a hole in the ground.
I wouldn't be whole enough to have a nice ceremony.
I would be splat.
But I would be dead, and that's what I wanted.
I wanted to die.
But you had to pull me off the edge.
But at least now you get a proper goodbye.
So Josh, thanks.
For saving me.
So I could tell you this.
I wanted to adopt with you.
I wanted to marry you.
So if you could please go to the bridge and walk down by the river.
Find that little black box and maybe, just maybe, say yes?
I bought it before I got home.
Not the physical home, but when I first met you.
I knew I was going to marry you.
I bought it after about a month of knowing you and saving money.
I want you.
So remember this, Josh.
Whether near or far, I am always yours.
Any change in time, we are young again.
In these coming years, many things will change.
But the way I feel will remain the same.
I love you.
I died for you.
But now there is a knock in my plan.
I kinda want to be alive to hear you answer my big question.
There you go again, saving me from my dreams.
Damn you, Josh.
Why did you make me fall for you?
But one thing is keeping me from living.
What if you say no?
I guess I'll never find out.
With all of the love I have left in my body,
Ty <3
Wait.
I think that's you on the street corner.
I'm making my move.
I'll give- OH NO YOU'RE WALKING AWAY.
IM COMING JOSH!
I'm coming home.
See you soon.
