Stay With Me (Onodera x Takano)

Chapter 12

Here's an extra long chapter for @seraphhearts HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! But beware... This chapter will probably make you cry.

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I woke up the next day surrounded by kleenexes from all of the crying. I checked every room of my apartment but Masamune never returned.

I didn't know what to do. I couldn't go to work. I couldn't face him after what happened the night before.

I sighed and said to myself, "Maybe I should just skip work today."

I picked up my phone and called Hatori.

Ring... Ring... Ring...

"Hello Onodera."

"Hello Hatori. I called to let you know that I'm not coming to work today. I really don't feel good." Well that wasn't actually a lie. I really did feel sick to my stomach from the stress.

"Really? Takano-san won't like to hear that. He seems in a bad enough mood already. Even more than usual. Wait, why didn't you call to tell him? Did something happen between you two?"

I was quiet for a little bit. "... It doesn't matter. Let me know if anything goes wrong." Then I hung up.

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I stayed the day at home thinking about everything. I even puked a couple of times just from being so stressed. When I'm in a bad situation, I overthink everything and throw up. I didn't even eat anything. I would probably just puke more.

At around the time I usually got out of work, I received a text message. "Ugh who could it be now?" I thought to myself. The text read:

Why didn't you come to work today? Are you okay? I'm coming over to check on you.

-Takano Masamune

"What? Why would he want to see me after what happened last night?" I thought.

I texted back:
No thank you. I'm doing just fine.

But it was too late. Right when I hit send, the doorbell rang.

"Hey! Open up, we need to talk!" He yelled from the other side of the door. But after I didn't answer for a few minutes, he called me. I meant to decline the call but I accidentally hit the answer button.

"Open up. You know we need to talk."

"N-no thank you."

"Dammit! Just please listen to me."

"... Fine." I finally agreed.

I hung up and opened the door, my face looking down, trying to not make eye contact. "You have five minutes." I said. I really didn't want to see him.

"He pushed his way past me and walked into the kitchen area. He turned to look at me. "What do you want?" I asked.

"You know what I want. I want to talk about last night. I want to know what is happening with you."

I laughed at him. "Really Masamune? I thought you were the one who said 'I don't care what happens to you'. So how can I believe that you actually want to know hats going on with me anymore? I thought you didn't fucking care."

His eyes widened at what I said and when he opened his mouth to talk, I stopped him.

"I don't want to hear it from you. Why don't you leave? I'm done with you. We're over."

Wait, I thought, What am I saying?

"No! Listen to me! Ritsu-"

"Don't you dare 'Ritsu' me. Why would I listen to you if you wouldn't even fucking listen to what I had to say last night. Don't use my first name anymore, I already told you, we're over. Now get the hell out of here."

"Ritsu-"

"I said get out!" I yelled. "I don't want to see your face anymore! Get out of here!"

His head hung low. "Okay." He whispered. "I guess we're done then." And he walked out of my apartment.

I stood there, shocked at what just happened for a minute. "What... What did I just..." I fell to my knees and started bawling my eyes out.

"Dammit! I'm such and idiot!" I yelled at myself. "What... What the hell is wrong with me?..."

I then realized that I have done something terribly wrong. Thoughts went through my head. I thought about how happy I was when we finally became a couple. And I thought about all of the past dates we had.

"I-I ruined it... I ruined everything..."

I don't know what was wrong with me that night, but I did something that I definitely regretted. I can't remember why I did it, and I have no idea what the point of doing it was. But it was really bad.

I went to the bathroom and looked into the mirror.

"Who cares about someone like me? I just messed up the only thing I cared about. So... What's the point of being here?"

I cried even harder.

"I don't deserve to be with him anyway. He deserves someone much better."

I looked at myself and began to realize all of my body's flaws.

"I'm ugly. I'm too skinny. My skin is too pale."

Then I though about everything that was wrong with my personality and how I did things.

"I'm a disappointment to my parents. They want a son who can run their company perfectly. I won't even marry An. They probably hate me for that. I always do half-assed work. I'm terrible at any job I do..."

The list went on and on.

"The world would be better off without me."

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The next day, I went to work and Masamune didn't even say anything to me at all. Well, except for one thing.

He was leaving to a meeting told everyone that he probably wouldn't be back until after everyone else was already gone. And right before he left he said, "By the way Onodera, you can have Friday off like you asked."

And that was it. We were over and he didn't even try to do anything even though the night we had the fight, he said "All I want is for you to stay with me."

But I guess that was a lie because it didn't seem like he wanted to stay with me anymore.

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Sorry for the sad chapter haha