How I Lost You ;; Seungkwan [ON HOLD]

iv. 퍼

{s e u n g k w a n}
Nervous
—; How I felt when I saw you standing there.

"This was a feeling never once I felt,
Never thought this could happen,
Might it be a delusion,
But a dream it came true."

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I like Chaemi. Not like, but even love.

My feelings for her had grown as the days go by. Her smile can make me feel better at any costs. I needed her in my daily basis. She was the only one who could make me feel like butterflies in my stomach existed. I was certain of my feelings for her.

But why was I too hesitant to ask her out?

Why was I too reluctant to confess my feelings for her?

Maybe because she didn't have the same feelings as I have for her. Maybe she didn't think of me as a good boyfriend. I had a lot of worries on how confessing could break our good friendship. I mean, good friendship is better than a bad relationship, right?

I feel like a big pabo.

Should I just ask her out? What if she rejects me? Ugh..what should I do?

Seungkwan groaned and forced himself to bed. After  the exhausting practice and tiring works, he just wanted to drift away in this world.

Did I mention, I was a trainee at Pledis Entertainment. I had a big passion in singing. Chaemi doesn't know about this. I don't want her to worry about me anymore. I dont't want to stress her out. As if she really cares duh.

But Chaemi is just refraining him from sleeping. She keeps on running through his head. She likes me right? Enough to ask me out on a "date"? I mean, why would she ask me out? But what if she doesn't? What if she just felt like going out tomorrow? God. I'm going crazy here.

I will call her.

My brain was just going wild. I didn't even know what I was doing. I just pressed call without a concrete plan.

And her answer sounded like my heart was being shattered. Was she angry or what at me?

But what a relief. She apologized and explained to me. I thought I did something wrong.

At the end of our conversation, I heard a sentence that could make me happier than ever.

"It's a date."

I smiled.

I should probably just sleep this off. It might get better tomorrow.

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