Phil's POV
What have a i done? This has ruined everything, i have been holding this secret for as long as i can remember and now i am going to have to leave Dan and close him in this chapter of my life when i want to have him in my life forever and ever.
Dan will ask me to move out he has to. I would if i were him, he likes Hanna and he always will, there is nothing i can do. His eyes are killing me i don't know what to do, i need to go. I need to go somewhere, anywhere.
Where is my wallet? in my bedroom, where is my phone? next to Dan. I can leave them i need to escape more than i need them. Seconds have dragged on too long and feel like hours, lets go.
"im sorry," i yelled, " im so so so sorry."
I ran, i ran as fast as i could and ignored Dan's attempts for me to come back. I ran and ran until i was out my apartment, out of my area and near the tube station on the other side of Islington. I have rarely used it but i needed to go further away and i knew my legs wouldn't take me much further.
I devised a plan and knew how to get to a small place in London that i knew would be quiet now and not too far but far enough to be away from my own thoughts. I was ready to go i was running to the gate ready to beep through, my hand swiped my..... Oyster card. But it wasn't my Oyster card it wasn't my usual blue card that rests in my hand it was just my bare hand. My oyster still in my wallet in my bedroom still with Dan.
My heart plummeted and so did my legs, i collapsed to my knees, i cried for Dan, for his eyes, for his hair, for his laugh and for his now hatred for the weird creep that has been secretly eyeing him up for the past 5 years, me.
