DAN'S POV
We arrived back to the apartment after our walk in pure silence. I didn't want to talk but i knew Phil did, Phil wanted to talk about our new romance and hear me tell him how much i loved him but i couldn't because i just didn't.
I unlocked the door, climbed up the stairs and went straight to bed. No tumblr, not youtube and no internet i just went to lie in my bed staring at the ceiling.
I was thinking about how i ruined our relationship, how i was going to break his heart, how i couldn't have hanna and how i was stuck in this awful decision for a very long time.
I carried on to worry and cry till it was 9am and my eyes couldn't stay open any longer. I was rudely awoken the next morning with Phil knocking on my door.
"hey" he said cheerfully as he came through my doorway carrying a tray with two plates of pancakes.
He was in his pajamas, the ones with i never really liked but he still looked kinda cute with his hair all ruffled with his chunky glasses.
He placed the tray on my bed and stared at me, confused as to why as i was in my clothes from last night.
"phil look i don-"
"its okay you don't have to say it, i understand everything, i understand it's hard but i think it's good this can finally happen. We can tell the subscribers in a while no rush, unless...."
"Phil i'm sorry but i'm not sure this is a good idea,"
i wanted to carry on but i couldn't, it was my fault and i couldn't just break him down like this not after i had lead him on like i clearly had. i mean i KISSED him!
"okay,"
He slipped out of my room as simple as that and that broke my heart. I still didn't love him but he was my best friend and seeing him upset broke me into pieces.
I couldn't cause him this much upset and i knew i had to just forget about me for a second, and thats what i did.
I stormed past the pancakes and ran up to him and caught him in a kiss, a kiss that meant nothing to me........
A/N
heyyyyy hope you enjoyed this chapter it took quite a while actually i had no idea what to put! if you want to follow me i would love you to insta--- phankilledme_
thanks for reading love you all lots xxxxxx
hannah
